Too many people are telling me the devil is busy, the devil this, the devil that. I mean what power does he have to destroy a child of God? I am looking to God, and the devil knows where he can go. In your hands Father, my hopes, my dreams, my needs. All in your hands.
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God had this case so in hand that the other side never even showed up and we are talking a bank. No opponent is so big that God can't turn them to chaff in the wind. Praise God and thank you Jesus!
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The case was DISMISSED!!!!!! Thank you God for your goodness, your love and mercy. Thank you Lord for all the good friends who have come to my aid time and again with prayers and candles, advice encouragement or a kind word. I am so grateful Father. Thank you.
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Tomorrow I go to court concerning this eviction. Pray for me, I didn't do anything wrong
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I just received a summons stating that I the new owners of the house I rent are suing to evict me. I have never been evicted, I have never been to court and I don't know what to do. Remember earlier I was so happy because the housing authority reduced my rent... but I was already paying double the amount I was supposed to be paying before the reduction. I sent the new owners a copy of the letter I received from the housing authority expecting them to tell me what we would do from there. When I got home today I found out they left an unlawful detainer with my son. I have not paid rent for December or January, my overpayment to them should have covered my rent until March. Instead of trying to talk to me they are opting to treat me like I did something wrong. And God knows I am tied. It's all gotten to be too much for me to handle. I haven't been here because i am stressed to the point of being sick. I am reaching out to God as much as I know to do. Please pray with me that God will step in. I just really feel heartbroken because I am trying the best that I can but I keep getting more problems dumped on my head... and I am falling apart inside.
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Update 12/1 I just found out today that the housing authority has reduced my share of the rent to 141.00. On a more somber note I found out I? was only supposed to be paying 154.00 after my son moved out over a year ago and I was still paying 309.00. I was never notified of the reduction. Still, I don't care! I can breathe again. Thank you Father for coming though and cutting my rent in half! Thank you dear sisters and brothers for your prayers. God is good. I know that this is only the beginning of good things to come!
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I'm sorry I haven't been here much, things have been pretty stressful but I am still trusting God. My son bought me groceries so thank God we are not hungry. I'm a little numb right now, but I know that God will bring me through.
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Not much has changed but can't give up. Robert's cough is much better. I know God has it all in his hands.
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Please pray for my son Robert. He has been so sick and weak lately. Dialysis makes him sick, not having dialysis makes him sick, he has developed a bad cough and cold and lost so much weight. He is hardly eating, and sleeps so much. He does not sleep well, fights and cries out in his sleep. I try not to worry because I know God does not want us to worry. I am overwhelmed, I am tired. There is no much going on that I can't think anymore, and I am constantly calling out to God. Not really a lot has changed.
I had to pay two months rent or the new owners were going to start action against me and it left me broke. I paid my tithes first so I am taking God at his word. My bills are all due and I did not get a chance to buy groceries so things have gotten pretty bare. I thank God there is still a roof over my head. Jesus said we should not worry about what we will eat or drink. If God feeds the birds he will feed us. I just pray that help comes soon, because right now things are looking pretty bleak every where I turn.
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I went it to cook dinner last night nd found out that my stove would not light, I checked the water heater and it was on... this morning I have no hot water so it seems my gas is off. My bill is paid but to be sure I called the gas company and the problem is not with them. No one said anything about work in the area. So I am guessing that the new property owners did this. They have not sent me any kind of request to move... they only let me know that the property has been sold and now belongs to the bank. A few months back my mom told me I could always come and stay with her... now the story is totally different and she is telling me she does not want to get into that. At some point in their lives I have always been there to give my family a place to stay and now that I am in need I have no one to help me. I am so hurt inside and I need God. You all know that I have been praying, praying, praying for so long... and I am just about used up. No bright spot through the clouds, only new problems. My son moved out of his dorm room and brought all his stuff back to this house even though he is not staying here. Please pray because I don't know what to do anymore. I can't take anymore. I read my earlier post... but I don't know what more I am supposed to do. I cast my cares to God. But so far I am only getting in deeper and deeper. My spirit is being crushed. I look at all the people who are not here anymore... all my strong prayer brothers and sisters who have become disillusioned and I don't want the ever to happen. I am struggling to let that never happen, but down inside I feel so hurt because I know God has the power to bring change and create all from nothing. Yet everyday I get buried deeper in the mire.
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8/25 A couple of days ago something happened that I think I should share, because it means something. I was in my bathroom brushing my teeth and thinking about my situation. I try not to worry about it since i let it go, but I was wondering how will I find a place, things being as they are, my credit history is wrecked, I have no money to move, and all that other wonderful confusion of problems. I was thinking God when I find a new place please let it be better than this. It came to my mind that God owns the earth, and whatever I ask for he can give me and better. He can give me a home of my own, in a good place where I don't have to live like this. He can show me the path to success so I can make a real life for myself and my family. Then the phone rang and it was my sister. We started talking and she told me the same thing I had been thinking, word for word... and the miraculous thing is it was at the moment I was thinking about it. When she called it had not been to discuss anything about my housing, but to ask me about a scripture and where to find it. So I see this as a reassurance that it will come. God was talking to both of us. Every time I feel myself trying to let my problems start replaying themselves over and over in my mind, before I can turn into worry I say "I cast my cares upon the Lord, He sustains me, He will not let me fall."
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8/8 I just found out today that my landlord went into foreclosure and this house was sold at auction 2 days ago. I'll have to find a place very soon. Pray that God will bless me with a place and the means to move. Pray that God will show me what to do, because I've lived here for 24 years. I know I need to move, I just need a way to do it.
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I had written a long update but I could not let it stand. Today I am very angry. I live in a very bad neighborhood. Prostitutes walk the streets in broad daylight, and men pick them up with no shame. My neighbors try to intimidate me. If you put all the days I have had someone I love beside me... you would come up with less than a year... and I am 52 years old. I'm very tired. Very sad. I've waited, prayed, cried, fasted, fasted, prayed, cried, knocked, sought and asked. I know that God does things in him own time... but after years of being alone, years of dealing with sickness, autism and just being a single parent... God I am tired. I need a miracle now. I hardly sleep. All who read this please pray. I DON"T NEED JUDGMENTAL COMMENTS... I need strength. Most of my life has been spent in waiting, and dealing with everything on my own. I know that God has seen me through but I need a job, cause my family is trying to live on 800 dollars a month that my son gets for ssi... My youngest son is going to college, but gets no financial aid other than a fee waiver for his classes. Please pray that he will get on the ball and check into into what he needs to do. I need to be able to work, cause right now my mind is just about gone. I have no help. No friends, no one I can talk to. Please pray that God will help me soon. I might not be here for awhile, I really need to rest.