Sister, please don't be so hard on yourself. Please know that God loves you just the way that you are...but at the same time, do not feel like you need to stay where you are. If you continually sad and feel like you could be depressed, please seek help. We will be praying with and for you.

Heavenly Father, please lift the sorrow, heaviness, weariness and self-doubt from your daughter right now. Please, flood her with your love and peace and renew her body and mind. Please strengthen her spirit and her faith. Please walk with her and help her to see the blessings, goodness, light and positivity that surrounds her. Please let her know that she is capable of great things with your help and motivate her to move up, out and on with her life and live it to your glory. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen.

What a beautiful smile you have! You continue to be in my prayers, dear one.Please be gentle with yourself. I pray that you can feel God's love surround you. I have had doubts too about religion...which one is right...who do I believe...must I choose one and reject all others? I don't have all the answers, and yet, miraculous changes have happened in me that I absolutely know are not my own doing. I pray that you will grow in understanding and that the path will be made clearer for you. God, let her feel your amazing grace as I have! Rita

Do you feel overwhelmed by life...even the small stuff? You may very well be suffering from depression. The exhaustion that you feel is another indicator. It's nothing to be ashamed of. Your story sounds so familiar because I have walked a similar path. My wake-up call? I was arrested & sent to jail! Don't let it get that bad. Beating yourself up over your shortcomings only perpetuates the shame & makes you want to hide. It sounds as though you may have an addiction. There are very small steps that you can make to break this self-destructive cycle that you are caught in. I pray that God will guide you in the right direction to find the help that you need. 4 years ago I wanted to die also. I felt so helpless, so needy & so unworthy. I can actually say that I feel joy in my life now. I am no better than you. I think God is closest to us when we are at rock bottom, because that is when we totally surrender to His will. Get yourself some professional help, counseling, antidepressants if needed. try a 12 Step group...make baby steps & God will meet you right where you are & lead you to the next step. Each step that you take will make you feel more powerful, less helpless & negative as you grow. God doesn't need perfect people. He needs flawed people like you & me. When he takes you & molds you into the woman that he intended you to be, your victory will also be his. Your life will be a witness of His grace. God, grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can & the wisdom to know the difference. God...please show her the next right thing to do, and give her the strength to do it.