God..please give the wisdom to seek Your Blessings before making an important decision..especially if the decision concerns somebody's life or death...I didnt do that and I lost a dear one..Im so deeply disturbed and seek your forgiveness again and again..You are kind..you will forgive me but how do I forgive myself?Lord please make my loved one feel that I love him and miss him..and I am so very sorry..I cant stop crying...forgive me God...