I feel so lost and depressed that I think about suicide every day. I am already on two anti-depressants and they evidently don't work. I have seen counselors and my Pastor, but nothing helps. I pray to God every day to restore my faith and trust in Him that things will be ok, but I don't see any change. I have been depressed for over 26 years, since my husband beat me up and then I married him. I have tried to get away from him but he promises me to change and then doesn't. I am 63 and retired, but now I have no money so I can't leave him. I have tried to get help from the state or government, but to no avail. I have tried to start my own company (making jewelry) so I can have my own money to leave, but I can't sell enough to support myself. I don't know what to do anymore. I've stopped going to church because I feel that God has abandoned me. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!