I know what you were feeling. I did everything i cold to help the love of my life, after 3 yrs of hard work, with her she left me. ive asked God to either bring her back of take her out of my mind, i got neither.its painful, it lonely. God has always been in my life, and i have been a good caring person, i just dont get what kind of Father/mother would let a child sofer like this. i lost my faith on GOD, but i still love him with all my heart. im just not believing him anymore. and the devil has nothing to do with it. the devil will never make me stop love God