I understand completely. It took all I had and some things I didn't have to keep me from going insane and letting my life go. I realized at a certain point that the devil was telling me the same things he is telling my husband right now. That there is no point, why go on, this is too hard, just give up, you are no good, everything he could throw at me he did. I just happened to be able to call on Jesus and my husband did not. If you would like to talk to me at all about anything you can email me at Blueseptemberl@aol.com. When Rholyn has hit bottom, there will be someone he can call and you and I both know who it will be. I am praying. Lee Ann

This is the time not to give up, but to stand against the enemy. You have to know that any communication from your husband was going to make you feel depressed, defeated, and just plain tired of the fight. What do you think Satan is counting on. God sees your husband right where he is, so does the devil. Your husband probably does not want to hear it, but have you tried writing a prayer and sending it email to him. The same way you get on here and pray for others. I am praying for you and for Rholyn right now. Have faith that Satan was already defeated. Do not give up this fight unless you hear the final word from God himself.