That I may have better control of what I am eating that I don't over indulge and that I exercise more, as I am overweight, and I am not watching my diet, I have a heart condition, God, as given me the opportunity to go on living as I had a bypass and was to have a pacemaker put in me. God has helped me recover from the Bypass and the doctors waited for awhile before putting a pacemaker in and because of God's miracle I did not require the pacemaker to be put in. Now I have not been watching my diet and I have put on weight and know I am overweight but for some reason I know that I am over eating, but continue to do so, and I know for health reasons, I shouldn't - it's like I don't care anymore, but deep down I know I should care. Please help me find my way, I believe I am lost and need to find my way again, I use to go to church now I don't. I don't know if its because of the passing of my parents and my brother, I know that's probably just an excuse, and with my hearth condition and being overweight plus other health conditions, I now have too be careful - and yet I still don't get it why am I doing this too myself. I am thankful that God has provided me with shelter and food for me and my family.