I got saved when I was 19 yrs. old and I had such a peace about me that it oozed out of me. I went to several churches til the radical christians ran me away. So I went on my own and studied the bible on my own for 2 yrs and stuck close to my christian friends as much as I could. I'm now 31 and God has life has changed and I admit I've fallen far from where I was but I've always kept a relationship with Christ Jesus and always felt his spirit but just this past year I've felt truly in the dark or should I say I'm in walkin through the desert alone.... I've been through some terrible things for example : I lost a baby and almost died the closest I've ever been to death, I got arrested, lost my job, and lost the love of my life all in the span of 4 months. I feel very alone and scared alot of the time; almost like the boogey man is creeping up on a small child is the only way I can describe the feeling I get... I'm trying very hard to piece my life back to together. I've never been felt so scattered in all my life. My family has always looked to me cause I've always been the responsible one with the level head and always very spiritual close to God. I don't feel happy at all or at peace about anything anymore. I'm always fighting back the tears or always crying about how uneasy I feel. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin; I've never felt like this before. I know people can see the sadness in my eyes when I use to gleam with joy at one time! I pray so hard at night I fall asleep praying or I don't sleep at all. My prayers are so jumbled up cause I have so many things botherin me it's ridculous! I need God's sweet peace before I lose my mind... At times I pray and I feel good about it and I feel like Ok everything is gonna be OK and I can do this but Oh "The Devil Is Busy" God gave us dominion over Satan and I know this but I'm weak and need God's Supernatural Strength and Power over him before he smothers and swallows my sweet spirit! I need prayer to keep me going on my new job... I get so down I don't want to get up and I need my job to survive and to show them I'm worthy of a raise so I can better myself and afford to live in this money hungry, greedy world. I want to find my true love that God has for me. I don't want to walk this world alone... I wish that Nathan Thornton would come back to me cause that's who in my heart I want a family with and love like no other. I pray every night that God will show him how much I love him and bring him back to me cause I feel like I can't go on because my heart is still with him. Why is it When U truly love someone; they don't love U and when someone truly loves U; U don't love them? I hate it! Is it the Game of Life? How can so much damage be done to someone to alter thier character so much? I want "Peace" God give me your peace every second of the day 24 hrs of the day; Every day for the rest of my life cause I can't live without U or your sweet peace.... Please Pray For Me.... KALA
Thank you for your heartfelt prayer, I know God is working in both our lives, I am glad you are wise enough to heed his instructions for you, I too am in a peaceful state now...somedays the evil one tries to mess with me, but i keep rebuking him and come back the next day asking for God to forgive me for being so weak....I know God hates divorces and in order to get our blessings we have to still walk and talk the married life, wearing our wedding rings and praying for their salvation daily......and when God has gotten all the kinks worked out and we have no more anger, unforgiveness, bitterness, resentment etc...in our hearts, and our spouses has repented, he will manifest it, he is just waiting on them to hit their knees before him......so my prayer is for your husband Nathan and mine Marc to repent and that God will convict their hearts so strongly and whisper in their ears 24/7 to go home......If we are wanting our husbands to come back to us, i read we are not suppose to be dating, or online dating, or having adulterous affairs, we are still considered married in God's eyes no matter what the judge says....He is not GOD! God says he can change even the coldest of stone hearts into flesh again, all we have to do is ask then wait on him........to work in your marriage, i've been waiting 17 months now, so believe me its not easy...but no one said it would be.... we are to show God we are walking the straight and narrow, so that God will want to bless us, I will keep praying for you and Nathan....Please keep Marc and Jane & my son Bryan in yours.....Love ya Sis...Jane
Honey, I feel the same way you do, exactly the same! reading your profile seemed like I was reading my own...so you are not alone! I pray the Lord will restore everything back to you in double and me too! I can only take it one day at a time...mine was 18 yrs of marriage and i was happy.....quite content! now all i can do is cry and keep hoping and believing God is going to fix it as he promised...I know he will...but sometimes the wait is just as hard! matter of fact that is the hard part! just waiting....its like a day seems like a week and a week a month and a month seems like a year! Man is it HARD! Keep the faith and just know there is nothing to hard for him to fix, and what he does for one he will do for us all....he is not a respector of persons, his promises are to all who ask, shall recieve, you just have to believe! ok....and here's the hard part.........WAIT ON IT!........But, IT WILL COME!!!!!
Lord, you did not give us the spirit of fear. Please comfort Kala and allow her to feel safe and at peace in your loving presence. Lord, Please redirect this lost sheep to the most loving Sheppard. Lord I pray for success in everything she touches, I pray for a renewed strength and increased self confidence. Please, don't let my sister fall further away from your hand. I pray for the HOLY SPIRIT to fill her and cleanse her of every destructive thought that the enemy may have planted. Lord, it is not riches that she seeks, but peace. I pray for peace for her, in Jesus name AMEN
Dear Lord help this lovely lady to feel your presence and be able to''let go and let god''release her fears to you and trust you will take care of her. Amen
Dear God, please be Kala's strength as she struggles through such horrible circumstances. Help her feel how strong your love for her is, especially in the darkest of times when it feels like you're not there. Please carry her through this time and bring her into your light, put her on the path of goodness that you have planned especially for her. Drive Satan and evil far away from her, and don't let them strike her when she's down. Bless her and pick her up, in Jesus' name, Amen.