I am 52 years old and lost my job, my house, my marriage, and my car. All I have is bills. My family and friends do not care and offer no hope. I can no longer hear, nor feel, nor see GOD! Now you might think this mas needs GOD, he needs to be saved, but I am and have been since 1979.

My wife was a behavioralist for a home health care agency working with children and adults with retardation, autisim, mental health disorders, etc. I worked for a state agency as a case manager helping 140 families and individuals with every disability known to man. About 6 years ago my wife was blackmailed by her supervisor to sign some papers, not knowing what they were. She asked him if she could bring them home to show her husband or our lawyer - he said "if you want your job you will sign them now" she signed the papers. My wife wrote a special program for this agency regarding how to work with the disabled. This program made this agency millions of dollars each year that she was there. She saw that the owners were getting greedy and were not working the program the right way any longer and the program was falling apart. She decided to leave and go elsewhere. Afetr she left she was notified that she could not work for another agency in the same field of a 2 year period,. The papers she signed under distress was a "non-compete" aggreeement. My wife was never offered, nor given and kind of compensation, for signing that letter, as she should have been given under state and federal law. We went to a few attorneys and judges that I knew from my work and they said that we had such a case that we could probably take over the agency.We could have had a multi millon dollar lawsuit. We were not looking to sue, but only for what was just under the law for the aggreement that she was mislead about and the 2 years she was out of work. The lawyers and judges we met with all said that we couldn't do a thing if we did not have any money to bring them to court. We tried to find someone that would do this on consignment or pro-bono, we couldn't and we lost 2 years of salary. My position with the state was streesful enough as it was, but now with this added strees my job became too much and I had a nervous breakdown and had to stop working. The bills were coming in left and right and we could no longer pay the mortgage. We tried every way imaginable to save our house, but were 2 weeks from going into foreclosure. Our attorney told us to sell the house and file bankruptcy. We sold the house for $320,000 because we were going to clain bankruptcy and can only have $18,000 per person, thus we got $36,000 for selling the house, but It was worth $475,000, but only got $36,000. This house we bought for $109,000 and we made all the improvements to our house to bring the value to the $475,000. (we were not rich people, but we were hard working) We moved out of state to Georgia thniking we could start a new life in a less expensive area. We could not secure any type of employement during these 6 months and all our money ran out. We came back to Connecticut where our family and friends were and on our way back to Connecticut the transmission in my truck leaked and burned up. The truck was towed to a garage and was fixed. That was 1/9/2007 and I have not been able to get a job yet. The money that was going to pay for the repairs went to apt rental expenses and bills, now the dearership wants the money and I no longer have it. Since I do not have any vehicle I can not look for work. I can not go out for a ride and see the trees, see people, see whatever, do whatever, I am a prisioner in this timy apartment. My wife is working.but her paycheck does not cover that much. We eat about every other day to save money on food and our dogs cannot get their shots because we do not have any money. I tried to commit sucide, but was not successful. Because of the strees the marriage is in a terrible position. My wife and I argue every single day. I plead with GOD to take me home constantly. The depression is so bad it hurts physcially and I have nightmares every time I put my head on the pillow.

How can people that have devoted the last 26 years of their lives helping the poor, homeless, disabled, helping those that no one cares for, even their own families, end up like this. Why has GOD allowed others to do us wrong and take advantage of as they have?

We are not pridefull people. We are simple people with good hearts,but it sems that GOD has turned His face away from us.

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up. I am too tired.

If there is anyone that thinks that GOD is still in the miracle business, please pray. I am prayed out.