Hi Prayer Warriors - I just want to wish you all a Happy New Year - praying that this year will see many Prayer Requests answered - praying and hoping that the harvests of prayers will now come into fruition.

I have not been on the Prayer Board for a while - due to work, home and just total exhaustion in all areas on ones life really - Giles has been coming along ok - now on medication, we are now talking and he is slowly taking each day at a time. Still struggling about the going outside bit but I know that God has it all under control - I pray that this year will alot of our children healed from this disease of depression - so they can walk in the destiny that God has planned for them - I love you all and wish you all the best - Bry thank you for all your kind words by the way - God Bless xxx

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Hi everyone - Just wanted to update yourselves on the situation at present - I had to call the ambulance/police again in regards to my son - he got up yesterday - got a bar and smashed his TV to bits, then he went into the kitchen - took out what food we had in the fridge and crushed it into the floor - all the shpping which had been puchased that day - I left him to it as I did not want to end in a confrontation with him and called the above people - as you know we have not been on speaking terms and that morning I told him he needed to clean up the mess in the kitchen when he prepares himself something to eat if he wants me to continue purchasing items for him - as he had left the kitchen in a mess from the previous evening - for some reason he kicked off - anyway I explained to the police on arrival that he was very depressed and that I do not want them going in blazing as had been done before - they said it had been explained to them prior to their arrival - when Giles saw them he broke down and cried and said why had I called them again after what they had done to him before - the police I know was embarassed by this, when it was explained to them what their previous colleague had put Giles through - they tried to say that Giles must have been violent - I said to them does he look violent- (no comment) they callled the ambulance who followed shortly - between them they got Giles to go with them to the hospital after 45 minutes explaining that they would be with him every step of the way and they would not allow anyone to hurt him - and I have to admit both parties were very professional and excellent in the way they dealt with Giles - I stayed home - as I felt that I am Giles problem - he needed to be on his own to face up to this problem - a friend came over soon after - at around 3.00pm I received a call a nurse/doctor from the hospital telling me that they were speaking to Giles and he had agreed to commence medication plus he had spoken to them about a few issues which was getting to him. The nurse also told me that they had enforced to Giles the importance of him taking his medication and where he could end up should he fail to take them. They have made arrangements short term for a nurse to come to the house every morning to give him his medication as Giles is currently having problems going outside - they are also arranging for someone to go with him to one of their offices to sort him out with some money to live on. He is somewhat anxious about this, but we continue to speak to him about this. They sent Giles home in a cab from the hospital and my friend who is a Group Speaker/Tutor for Offenders spoke with him - and she was excellent - she asked him questions which ended up with Giles talking about when he was 5 years old up to the present day. Alot of it surrounded myself, his grandparents, friends and now himself - he cried and cried - I apologised to him for any pain I caused him in the past, but as I explained to him as a parent, we dont get it right. He said he never felt loved and being a single child he felt I could have done more and spent more time with him as he grew up - (he knew I had to work - and he does not blame me for this - but he feels because of this he has no people skills on how to mix with others very well). He cried about the fact we have always struggled and he has done without for so long and he thought now he could make a difference to the family unit, but he finds himself struggling to fit in with this world and peoples prejudices - all in all he said he felt better for talking, my friend who came over had asked all the right question and got him to really open up - the night ended with a takeaway for all concened which I could not afford but who cares, I feel that I got a part of Giles back yesterday - and I just pray that this is the beginning of another beginning for him - so I just ask yourselves to please pray for him - whilst he goes through this process of trying to get well, please pray for him that eventually he will find the strength to go out in the daytime, that he will not have bad dreams of being chased. A prayer just to put him back on track where God wants him to be - he knows that he will still have his ups and down but he now knows he had to accept the help and he felt he was worth bothering about - I also ask for a prayer for my friend and that God blesses her - he supplied her with the great tools of communication which she uses so greatly - allowing people to open up so they can be healed. My love to you all and thank you.

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09/11/07 - Hi everyone - Giles did not attend the appointment which was arranged for him - he continues to lie in bed all day and night - getting worse - I have noted he has not eaten for 2/3 days - what I can do, not alot - apart of me has closed down - I feel very angry towards him for allowing himself to get like this - when I try to speak to him - he refuses to acknowledge me, a friend came over and he also ignored her - so now I am letting go and leaving him to God - I have tried evetything possible - the next stop for Giles will be hospital - because he is bordering on anorexia - and sinking deeper into a place which he cannot be reached - it is tearing me apart to see this happening - but whatever is happening with Giles is out of my control and this is a battle that I cannot win in my human form - this is a spiritual battle - and only God can sort it - so all I ask from yourselves - is to please continue praying for Giles and for many like him - because if I am honest, I'm broken like alot of mothers on this site crying for their sons and I cannot do anymore - if it was not for me having to work - I am not sure what I would do - love to you all
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28/10/07 - Hi everyone - once again I thank you all from my heart for all your prayers for my Giles and myself - I know in my heart we just have to all get through this season in all our lives - and in time - there will be many people writing - Prayers have been answered on this site - I just want to let yourselves know that the Assessment Team came around to see Giles on Friday - they have confirmed he is definitely depressed - and needs to be placed on medication, plus attend the centre for counselling - the only problem being - he will not leave the house - has only gone out twice in 6 months and this has always been late at night when he feels everything is closing in around him, he does not want people to see him during the day, as he believes they are staring at him and laughing as I have said before. The assessment team weighed him and confirmed he is underweight and could be bordering on anorexia which could add to his situation - they believe the medication will help his appetite - I will be accompanying him to his first meeting on the 7th Nov - even though he does not talk to me - this does upset me and any form of conversation from him is abrupt and aggressive - so I just ask yourselves to please continue praying for him as he is reluctant to leave the house much less take the medication. I just want that Gods will for his life will get back on track - I myself will be returning back to work on the 31st Oct - having been off for 6 wks and I pray that whilst he is at home on his own, that he will take time to reflect on his life and maybe just talk to God. Once again I thank all of you and I continue to pray for all - God bless u all in the name of Jesus - xxxxx
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25/10/87 - I want to thank all of yourselves for continuing to pray for my son Giles - Giles turned up Monday afternoon at 2pm - said he went to see a friend and then spent most of the night walking around - hoping that something would happen to him - Last night it was clear he was looking for an argument - in regards to the subject in question it was not worth it - around midnight he started banging the base of his bed on the floor continuously - my concern was that the neighbours would call the police - I told him to stop and he proceeded to growl at me to leave him alone - i told him should the police be called there is no telling what they would do to him - he went on to say he did not care what happened to him - Giles does not sleep at nights and I find this is when he really turns into someone else - his body is tired - he is hungry - he complains there is no food in the house - I told him I can only buy what I can afford - I've only got paid yesterday and all that is remaining in my account now is £4.00 - sometimes I feel like ending it all myself because of everything - he says he understands the situation - but yet by his actions towards myself he blames me for everything. I am having to rob Peter to pay Paul - it is never ending. I had to call the police on a couple of occasions - because I was scared - the last time I called them - last month, they did not see a depressed individual - they just saw a youth and and the police in question proceeded to rough him up - they later let him go stating they could see he had problems, because it was clear by his self harming, but they would not charge him as he did not have any criminal records considering his age, which they said in these times are rare - I said to Giles he has to pray - he said he has done this - and nothing is happening - Please I beg all of you, please continue to pray for him - the enemy is attacking my boy and as his mother I dont know if my sanity can hold it together - some days I am strong, other days like today - I wake up crying - I wanted to call a friend and speak last night, but there was no one, I dont want to harrass people continually. Giles eventually fell asleep at 6.00am this morning - I am worried about what today will bring - he has so much anger in him - I am hoping that when the Assessment team come tomorrow - they will be able to help. I just hope they do help him, and not just pump him with medication and throw him in a hospital. I am unsure as to how these things work. Giles has never had a male role model in his life and I do believe this has added to his problems - it has always been the both of us since he was born - so I am hoping it will be a man that will speak with him in order to get a male perspective on things. I thank you all for reading this and I pray God bless all of you - xx
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22/10/07 - My son Giles walked out at 11.30pm last night (21/10) - it was his birthday - I said and done nothing as I could not bring myself to do anything due to the whole situation being far from happy - his behaviour towards me has left a bad taste in my mouth - there is an assessment team coming over to our home this Friday 26th to assessment him in order to find out how bad his depression is and take it from there - I found a message he scrapped on his radio saying "I want to Die" - I know in my heart he has given up but I still believe that he is not that far gone that he cannot come back from his hell he has found himself in - I just ask that yourselves please continue to pray for his heart mind and soul, and body and for God to protect him - he has now taken to not washing himself - so as you can imagine he is beginning to smell - I can do more - when I open my mouth I am spoken to like I am rubbish - so all I can do is watch and wait on God to intervene - I thank you all for your prayers

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please continue to pray for my son - it is very easy to pray for others sometimes and to advise people the best way you can - but its even harder to take the advice yourself - As some of you may be aware my son is not well - he has not left the home since April due to depression, but this depression has been with him since he was at school - he refuses and finds it hard to leave the house to get help and everytime I bring up the subject of him seeking professional help - he gets aggressive and in some cases - violent throwing things around - he goes back into his bedroom which is in a terrible state - and I am unsure whether he is continunig to self harm himself - I am at a lost what to do for the best - some days I am ok - and today I feel broken with worry for my boy and myself - my health I know is suffering and I need to get a grip on this - but it is very hard. What little strength and hope I have, I am struggling to hold onto - I just ask for continued prayer from yourselves please - I continue to lift everyone up on this site - those with kids in the same situation and every individual who is suffering from various circumstances in their life - Lord help us all - in the name of Jesus - thank you

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