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Please pray purposefully for Alexander, so that God shakes his heart with thunderbolt in repentance, kicks out his destructive fixation, and brings back his reason in a way that Alexander recongizes that taking the path of abandonment is devil's path, that doing this to me and to us is against his better judgement, but changing the fixation into rebuilding us is good. Please pray right beside me that Alexander does not leave on December 1, nor ever, and that Lord washes away his negativism about me and replace it with a faithful heart full of pure and craving love! In Lord I trust, please intercede for victory of my cause.

Oh Lord, Please do not take away the meaning of what I have endured. Please do not turn all those years of my life into a waste. Please Lord, please hear my prayer. I am not asking all this because of madness or selfishnes, but because of desperation and because no one else is there ot consider how much I need this. Forgive me that I humbly dare to ask you for so great things.

I do not pray for peace, serenity, comfort or influence on MY emotions as an end in itself. My prayer is not about my emotions, but focused onto the circumstances and Lord has the might, the right, the promptnes and the mercy to change THEM: "And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, and rebuked the winds and the sea; and there was a great calm."
I rely on Lord to completely subdue the "storm" (Alexander's destructive goals against our love) and quickly turn it into what I consider heaven (solid family, firm loyalty, insatiable love, mad devotion, tender care and tearing passion about me), so that my soul rests before Lord in praising Him and rejoicing in eternal bliss. I need nothing else/different/better/another or whatsoever, but from steady victory of MY cause.

I need Alexander to cease focusing on anything else but me - I need him to be with me and spend his time happily with me, instead of being all day on the computer or doing anything else. I need his full attention, as I have deserved it already by supporting him all these years. I beg that Lord "punishes" Alexander with the bliss of making him inextricably bound up with me, so that nothing else is capable of being appealing to him, but me and me only.

I implore Lord for shattering any resentment that Alexander might have towards me; I implore Lord that He makes me the one and only thing that Alexander craves, thinks, cares about. I beg Lord He turns Alexander's hostility towards the things he tires to substitute me with, I beg Lord that I am the top and only priority in Alexander's attention; I implore Lord to nip in the bud every impulse of distraction away from me, and make Alexander once again to love me to distraction; I want Alexander to need ME in order to smile, breathe, think or function. I implore Lord to talk to him all the time and imune him to devil's subversive suggestions. I beg Lord to annihilate every bit of negative concept about me within Alexander and call into actual existence the love obsession about me, monogamous devotion about me, sense of freedom (as if he is given wings) only when he is receives my love, BECAUSE I PRAY IN THE NAME OF "the God who gives life to the dead and calls things that are not as though they were." I beg Lord that he makes Alexander takes his responsibility of me and his vows to me and marry me and uphold for us grow old TOGETHER, SIDE BY SIDE, FAITHFULLY, WITH NO DESECRATION TO EACH OTHER EVER. I beg Lord that he works with Alexander, so that he cannot stand even a second being without me around him and so that he craves me so badly that nothing of the evil impulses can reach his brain, soul and heart ever.

I beg you for your prayers, as there is not much time left and overcoming Alexander's "illness" needs ALL OF YOU! Please stand in agreement with me and stop this tragedy!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND CANDLES! BE SURE THAT I PRAY FOR YOU TOO! BE BLESSED FOR CRYING MY PAIN OUT OF YOUR HEARTS AND DEMANDING MY CAUSE TO BE VICTORIOUS!

I cannot handle this anymore ... the situation is impossible, Alexander is outrageous and treats me like garbage. Whatever I do is wrong and whatever I say (kind or nice) is twisted in some sick way. I can't live like this any more. I don't need change of my emotions, but change of the situation and if the circumstances remain the same, I just don't think I'd choose God's peace...

Please pray for Alexnader's change!

I have a progress that I wanted to report to all of you brothers and sisters, who stood before Lord and intereceded for my cause to have Alexander back and live in his heart as pure love and passion, forever! Lord has not answered my prayer yet, however there is something I want to praise him for, as it is a milestone of the path to success!

1) PRAISE TO THE LORD - Alexander did not leave on December 1 - he changed the extended the countdown (unfortunately the bomb might go off in a minute, or 2, or a day or 2, or a month or 2, or more... it hasn't been defused yet). 2) Alexander abuses me less (still says and demonstrates that he has "no heart" for me, but Lord will keep listening to our prayers and substitute Alexnader's heart with one that is only for me and nothing else would mean anything, but me only). 3) I have faith and even though it might seem like a yo-yo - my faith is most of the time up, rather than down, exaclty because of the signs that Lord listens ... (please continue praying that Lord quicly gets me full victory, that Alex falls in love with me more than ever, that he is faithful forever, that we get married and have many kids and happy home).

Every day I pray that Lord hears us all who stand in agreement before him and intercede for each others' problems! And as long as we do that He will listen! Lord is mighty to save and we beg him to hurry!

I APPRECIATE YOUR CANDLES AND SUPPORT! MAY LORD BLESS YOU FOR CRYING MY PAIN OUT OF YOUR HEARTS AND PRESENT IT TO OTHERS TO JOIN! MAY LORD BLESS OUR AGREEMENT!

I have a progress that I wanted to report to all of you brothers and sisters, who stood before Lord and intereceded for my cause to have Alexander back and live in his heart as pure love and passion, forever! Lord has not answered my prayer yet, however there is something I want to praise him for, as it is a milestone of the path to success!

1) PRAISE TO THE LORD - Alexander did not leave on December 1 - he changed the extended the countdown (unfortunately the bomb might go off in a minute, or 2, or a day or 2, or a month or 2, or more... it hasn't been defused yet). 2) Alexander abuses me less (still says and demonstrates that he has "no heart" for me, but Lord will keep listening to our prayers and substitute Alexnader's heart with one that is only for me and nothing else would mean anything, but me only). 3) I have faith and even though it might seem like a yo-yo - my faith is most of the time up, rather than down, exaclty because of the signs that Lord listens ... (please continue praying that Lord quicly gets me full victory, that Alex falls in love with me more than ever, that he is faithful forever, that we get married and have many kids and happy home).

Every day I pray that Lord hears us all who stand in agreement before him and intercede for each others' problems! And as long as we do that He will listen! Lord is mighty to save and we beg him to hurry!

I APPRECIATE YOUR CANDLES AND SUPPORT! MAY LORD BLESS YOU FOR CRYING MY PAIN OUT OF YOUR HEARTS AND PRESENT IT TO OTHERS TO JOIN! MAY LORD BLESS OUR AGREEMENT!

I have a progress that I wanted to report to all of you brothers and sisters, who stood before Lord and intereceded for my cause to have Alexander back and live in his heart as pure love and passion, forever! Lord has not answered my prayer yet, however there is something I want to praise him for, as it is a milestone of the path to success!

1) PRAISE TO THE LORD - Alexander did not leave on December 1 - he changed the extended the countdown (unfortunately the bomb might go off in a minute, or 2, or a day or 2, or a month or 2, or more... it hasn't been defused yet). 2) Alexander abuses me less (still says and demonstrates that he has "no heart" for me, but Lord will keep listening to our prayers and substitute Alexnader's heart with one that is only for me and nothing else would mean anything, but me only). 3) I have faith and even though it might seem like a yo-yo - my faith is most of the time up, rather than down, exaclty because of the signs that Lord listens ... (please continue praying that Lord quicly gets me full victory, that Alex falls in love with me more than ever, that he is faithful forever, that we get married and have many kids and happy home).

Every day I pray that Lord hears us all who stand in agreement before him and intercede for each others' problems! And as long as we do that He will listen! Lord is mighty to save and we beg him to hurry!

I APPRECIATE YOUR CANDLES AND SUPPORT! MAY LORD BLESS YOU FOR CRYING MY PAIN OUT OF YOUR HEARTS AND PRESENT IT TO OTHERS TO JOIN! MAY LORD BLESS OUR AGREEMENT!

Alexander is still at home. He is letting him touch him, which is incredible progress. He claims that he is doing it for me, that it does not give him any good thrill, but I still believe that Lord is about to change that. Alexander is off and on now - i.e. it is mostly "off" but I am happy that there is moments of "on" too... THANK YOU FOR YOUR PRAYERS AND CANDLES - I BELIEVE THAT THIS IS WHAT WILL MAKE THE DIFFERENCE AND THE MIRACLE COME TRUE!

I know that I am too brave to hope for that, but I hope you pray that we get married, have a good home, and many great kids, also that he shares everything positive that he HAS, FEELS and THINKS with me. I know that given the circumstances it is too far fetched to pray for that, but I am hoping that in a month ON VALENTINE'S DAY I get a diamond ring and a date for a wedding to come true, instead of any negative! My faith is that with Lord it is possible!