My heart has been broken in the past and now my heart just feels heavy. I fear that my past experiences and disappointments have made me bitter, and I don't want to be like that. I want to be happy for others and joyful about the good things that are happening to them. I know what I want, but I don't know what God's plan is for me. I just feel like I'm being left behind. Life for others is going on and I'm in the same place. I wonder sometimes if God has forgotten all about me. I have hope that God has this awesome plan for me, but sometimes I feel more like Friedrich Nietzsche when he said, "In reality, hope is the worst of all evils, because it prolongs man's torments."

I just need peace. With all that God has blessed me with I feel odd asking for even more, but I also need prayer that God, with everything else that he has going on, will remember me and bless me.