Mark came by last Friday to tell me this break has little to do with me, mostly stress from work and other things going on in his life. He says he loves me and sees himself with me for a very long time. It was the second and last time I have seen him since the New Year. He hasn't made any effort to see me since then and we have not talked much. At times I see effort for him to keep his word, like he will call me to let me know something is tying him up. But he is still keeping very distant and it hurts like I can't begin to describe. I still need you all to pray for us. Please.

Mark and I are arguing a lot less. We have only spent 3 days together since the new year, unfortunately. Right now he is still preoccupied with work. Tonight discussed him taking a job near me so we will be closer and have a job that meets more of the criteria for where he wants to work. Please pray that he is able to get a job in the same town I live in (it is selective), as it would help both of us with a lot of troubles. It would help Mark with his peace of mind and happiness, and it would help relieve a lot of my relationship stress and financial troubles. I feel that if this is to happen, everything else will finally fall into place. Please, please continue praying for us and our relationship.

I learned 2 days ago that in our tough times (there have been many) that Mark has been turning to another woman who he has a past history with. She has been doing nothing short of trying to tear us apart. In fact, it was her who I learned this from, though she embellished quite a bit. I need help keeping her and other women away from our relationship.

Mark and I both have the intent to work things out and really want a future together. I ask that you please pray for us because we need so much help right now. I need help to forgive and to lose my anger, depression, and to be able to trust him again. Mark needs help in treating me the way any person should be treated in a relationship. He needs to learn patience and kindness and loyalty. Please, I ask you all, to pray for us. I am completely broken and need help to pick up the pieces. I ask this through Christ, our Lord, Amen.

Mark is coming to see me today so that we can talk and see if we can work things out. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, as he is very angry with himself and is taking it out on me (he has vocalized this) and I am still hurting very deeply. Thank you all so much for your prayers and encouragement.

Mark just called and we had a long talk. He has a lot stressing him out lately and feels more stressed out than he ever has before. He actually told me for the first time in his life he is feeling depressed. He opened up quite a bit and he asked me to go on a trip with him at the end of the month. However, due to being overwhelmed with his career, he will not be coming to see me to talk today. He says he will come up tomorrow. Please pray that things will go well then, because now I am feeling very disappointed and hurt again. I am trying my best to be understanding and supportive...and please pray for Mark's depression as well. Thank you all for continuing to pray and keep us in your prayers.

Hello Friends. I am sorry I have not been on here in awhile, as I have been dealing with a lot. Mark and I are still together, though times are rough and our relationship needs a lot of healing. Things are great one minute and horrible the next. We talked and moved past this girl (he has stopped talking to her completely), but both of us are dealing with depression. We had our anniversary yesterday, but I was crushed to end up spending it alone. He knew I had taken off work, but claims to have forgotten that I did. I barely hear from him lately, and have been getting increasingly depressed. He tends to keep telling me he will call "later" but it never happens. It is so bad that a friend has convinced me to go see a doctor today to talk and see if I can get some medications to ease my anxiety and help me sleep. I'm scared...

Mark has been so angry with me. Part of it is due to my stress and depression. I'm not sure where the other part is coming from...maybe anger with himself? Any time I try to open up to him lately and tell him how I am feeling, he gets short-tempered and tells me I am just being hard on him without really taking the time to listen to what I am trying to say- and just open up. I need him to listen, and to have responses that go beyond him sitting in silence or snapping. I know that I really need him around more than ever right now seeing that he is my best friend and to feel loved, but I don't think he understands that. I know he is capable of being kind under stress, he is just having a hard time doing so with me for whatever reason lately. He feels like he can't do anything right with me, and I feel that way in the reverse. I am taking my graduate school entrance exam in 3 days and have not been able to concentrate, let alone sleep. I am supposed to leave for a trip with Mark the following day. I'm having a hard time deciding if I should go or not. I was so looking forward to this trip, but after spending yesterday alone, I am finding it hard to let myself be there for something so important to him when he didn't seem to care about what was important to me. I just want this to all be behind us so we can go back to how we used to focus on how much we loved one another. I am tired of all of this hurt and tears. Please pray for the both of us and the healing of our relationship. I can't take it getting much worse and I need help keeping Satan far away. I don't know where else to turn...

I know that Mark still loves me and really does. I get so easily offended (ie if when he calls me and it ends up being at 3am, and he ends up falling asleep, I feel like he doesnt care). He did send me a message yesterday saying that he doesn't think I realize how much he cares about me and that he wants to marry me and wishes he could be with me in person more. I just need more than words from him right now...