The Lord knows I believe in Him. However, my life keeps spiraling. My partner diagnosed with terminal illness 6 months after we met. He vomits everyday for past 4 years and there is phycological problems now too. We purchased this house Oct 06 - within 2 months 2 out of 3 neighbours turned on us one lot profess to be christians they have had us in and out of court for past year and judge believes everything they say without proof - police keep harassing us - we live in the country so its very clicky. Now we have other court problems as my partner uses marijuana for medical reasons as this is the only thing that makes him feel better and takes away the nausea but now we have to buy it on black market because police raided us twice they mistreat us badly. Our finances are in extreme danger area due to high price of pot. I can not convince my partner of anything. Doctors support him and have written letter. My kids are all over the place as I was married to a so-called christian for 10 years only to find out he is a paedophile now currently serving 15 years. I went off rails ended up alcoholic and using speed until I met current partner who helped me heaps. I need to be able to hear what the Lord God Almighty is saying to me, I need guidance, direction, the outside influences to leave us alone and get through all this - regain our peace. Also my 14 yr daughter who came back last March is gone and accusing my partner of putrid things - she says nothing happened this time only when she was with us in 2003. My othe daughter used to share bed at that time and is sickened by allegations and states they are not true. Please help