Everyone who reads this, please pray for me, please, for Jesus has to hear this, everything all of the sudden is broken. It is not me I pray for, but every who is in pain, please help. God has to know what is happening. Please pray for me. It is so much to tell, this fact just broke me, and everyone around me. Spomehow I believed, for I layed everything at your hand. Now I am just done, broken, I can't even cry, There is so much pain inside me, somehow I can't let it out. I guess I am still waiting for a miracle. Please note, If you can't do this for me, at least do this for them, they are in pain, please help. Please pray for me. I thank you all.

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This my story. First I can say I am the third child of my family, I have 2 big brother, a little brother and a little sister, my parents. Right now I am studying in a foreign country far from the place I was born, Suriname. Last August I had the sudden knowledge that my brother was in the hospital. There is more, My brther, my little brother, who is by the way 25 now, had a girlfriend, he wanted to marry her. I still don't know what happened, for he himself cannot not tell me for sure what had come into him. But as it is, he wanted to die together with her. For he stabs himself and her, she dies and he lives. My baby brother killed somebody and he can't stop crying. Everyone, my father, my mother, my brothers, my little sister is in pain for this. We are hurting. We cannot accept the fact that something very evil happened. I feel so sorry for the girl that died, but at the same time I can't abondon my baby brother. I believe in God, preciously, always did, always will do. Please believe me if I say that I can;t see my brother as murderer, because he is hurting also, and he can't remeber anything that happened. I went to him, hold his hands, and cried when nobody saw me, cause I had to be strong, nobody have to see me crying, I am strong. Somehow we got hope from God, from the lawyer that everything was going to be fine, and that he will be out soon the prison, so we waited for the result. Today we had tghe result, ot is very negative and he has to go to prison for a long time. This is such a shock, as if we are reliving everything all over again. I am not trying to make any excuses, I know what happened, I know what I would do, if circumstances were otherwise. Everyone is crying, everyone is hurt, my brother cried, my parents cried, my eldest brother went crazed, zo angry, very frustated, and my little sister talked to me, everyone telling me not to worry to take care of myself. I don't know what to do, I don't know what hurts most, the sentence of my baby brother or that everyone is hurting, crying, not being able to apprehend all. My chest hurts, I can;t cry.I am waiting for something, I don't know what. If you don't want to pray for me, its all right, cause I understand. If god himself couldn't care for us, Our lawyer said he is going to charge averything all over again, so everything will be investigated again, as according to him everything was incomplete and quite ready. I hope this will give help. I want to say to God, to Jesus, to help my family, to protect him, please sooth them, please god, I beg you. I cant pray now, my heart is empty, I am felling so dry. God, I have to admit I can't feel anaymore. Will you pray for me, will you tell god to come, will you tell him to please listen, will you tell him to see, please look, protect, will you tell him to hold my family's hands, tell him to come, my family desperately needs them, I am alone, There is noone around me, still I keep on, why? God I am so sorry, for everything. Please help them.
Will you pray for me?