Father God,
I'm down on my knees one more time. Please take care of my children. Watch over them, guide them, comfort them. Show them the way. Please help my mom, send her blessings to help her with her troubles, and to help with all that comes up. Please let them forgive me. I just can't anymore. I want too but I can't. Take care of Mickie, Robert, Lynda, Kyrie and Nikita, Stephen and Katelyn. All the dear friends I have known to come and love on here. Send them all the blessings that they are in need of. I pray in Jesus' most loving name. Amen

Please do not worry. I am here. I am alive, I just am quiet right now. I am still praying just as hard for every one of you, I am at a loss for words. I thank you for all the kindness. xx

Thank you all, for everything. For the emails, for the prayers and for the candles. I am doing okay. I hit a very low time and just needed to be picked back up again. You all had a hand in that, my appreciation will never be able to be shown enough. I really need to have time with Mick. It's getting to the both of us, being so far away from one another. I try to remain strong, because I know things will happen in God's time, still that doesn't keep me from feeling what I do. I love him. I swear I have never felt so strongly about someone, or needed something so much. It's very strong, the need in me. Very hard to deal with, but I continue on. I know that "he " is listening and will help us make it through this.

Father God,
Please forgive me for the thoughts I allowed myself to have the other day. For I know with you, that all things will be okay. Please help Mick and I to come together as one. Let us have this as we both want it desperately. We need one another, Father. Thank you for hearing our prayers. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen

feeling so very lost in my own sadness. I don't even know what i'm sad for. It's just an overall feeling that has come over me. Please pray for Mick, that he continues to heal and lift his depression. Please pray for my friends Robert and Lynda. Robert has now come down with an illness himself, to what degree I do not know, but just pray for him that he starts to feel better soon, and my friend Lynda, for her work load to be lightened so that she is getting more rest. She has been working 15 hour days she had told me, and its just wearing her out. However, I think she is sad too. Please Father, comfort her and guide her through whatever may be troubling her heart. I pray for this in Jesus' name. Amen

I can't write much, because it hurts too badly. Thank you so much for your kind words and your prayers, for Mick, my children, his children, and Robert & Lynda and their children and my mom. Every time I think I can start to look up a little bit, that things are going to get better it just feels like I get knocked back down again. I don't want to be depressing. Please, if you would, continue your prayers. We are all so much in need of them. I am praying, I just find myself without the words to write. I hope you will all forgive me. Just having a very hard time dealing at the moment. Pray for Mick's total healing, mind, body and soul and for his serenity. Please pray that Robert gets well quickly (bronchitis) so that he may catch a flight back home to his dear wife, Lynda and their children. Pray that Kyrie and Nikita are safe and healthy, and for them to continue to bring light and happiness into their father's life. Pray for my children, Austin and Mariah, to stay healthy and strong and follow the right path in their lives. My mom's health, and financial well-being. Please God, I need your help here. I'm very confused within. God Bless you all

Most Heavenly Father,
I am down on my knees before you. Please Father help Mick and I survive this distance until we can be together. We are both trying so very hard, but the drastic time differences, the miles separating us and the continued telephone problems, they really do take a toll. Please let us be in one another's arms soon. We are trying to be patient, its just been so long. Please allow us this miracle of coming together very soon. Keep Mick in your loving embrace, Father. Keep him safe, and strong, until we can get this together. I pray in Jesus' mighty name. Amen.

Please Father continue to heal Mick from his surgery. He is still in a great deal of pain, more than I know probably, and I can tell its bothering him really bad. Please keep him safe Father, and let him be getting the rest he is in need of. In Jesus Precious name. Amen xx

Most Heavenly Father,
I lift Mick up to you. Please wrap him in your loving embrace. Take away all his pain and suffering and make him well again. Give him love, hope, serenity, and strength to overcome everything that is hurting him. Bless him with all that he is in need of, and if you would, bring us together so that we may be there for one another. I pray in Jesus' most loving, Precious name. Amen

I am beyond words here... Mick, he is in the hospital yet again. They are as of right now just keeping him overnight, he is having a bunch of scans done tomorrow. He is having terrible, awful pains in the area still from his surgery. He feels like there is something in there that should not be, I don't know quite how to explain it, but the thought scares me, especially for the fact of the anesthesia again. Please, please pray for him that its just the healing process and nothing too serious. I cannot handle anymore. I sat and listened to him on the phone last night (I could hear him, he couldn't hear me) he was talking to me, telling me how much it hurt, I begged God to let me take his pain for him. I can't handle anymore happening to this man. To best explain it, and the only possible way I can. Mick and I have this connection, a very very strong connection. I sense things when there is something wrong, when something hurts. He does the same. He always seems to know, without a word spoken to him. Please Dear God, protect this man. Heal his body, his mind, his soul. Make him well again. Give him happiness, peace, serenity, faith, all that you possibly can. I am on my knees begging, dear Father, please hear my prayer. Please keep Robert and his wife, Lynda (our friends) in your prayers too. Robert still is down with pneumonia himself, getting better, but still fighting it. And Lynda, please bless her abundantly with all that you can, she is very dear to me. I thank you for having Mercy upon this situation. In Jesus Most Precious Name I pray for this. Amen

Thank you my dear friends, for continuing to stand by me even when I become quite the flake and cannot bring myself to post. I have been praying in silence, only speaking up occassionally. My heart, I don't know how to really describe what i'm feeling, but it just hurts tremendously. May God answer all of our prayers, each and every one of them, and send many blessings to every one of you. Sending you all my love, and good wishes xx Stephanie

Thank you God!! My dear friends, brothers and sisters in Christ, Mick is back at home. He is still weak, still in much pain, but there is nothing wrong that requires him to have another surgery. They told him that it was probably taking a longer time for him to heal because he did not take the required time to recover after surgery. Thank you all so much for your prayers. We are not together yet, but I am very thankful to God for his health. Please continue to pray for him, that his recovery continues, that he starts to feeling much better, and that yes, one day soon we will be together. Thank you all, from the bottom of my heart. May all the prayers be heard and answered in accordance with his will.

Blessings and much love,
Stephanie xx

I spent most of the night on the phone with Mick again. He is so very ill. He has caught a virus of some sort I am guessing because his immunity is so weakened. I wish so much that he would hear me. I can hear him most of the time, but for some reason, on his end, he never hears. Not unless it is reversed, where I cannot hear anything, does he ever hear me. I love him, so very much. I thank you all for your prayers, I cannot thank you enough. It has been great comfort for me, to know that I am not alone in praying for him. I will have to finish this later as he just called me again. Please God, I know I'm asking for so much, but please let there be a breakthrough that he and I can just have a normal conversation, that we are together eventually. He needs to be completely well first though. His health is paramount to all else I am asking for. I just really love this man. I need him to be well. Thank you again... I'm going to go and listen to him. He and I share this that we get comfort from just knowing even that we are connected on the phone. Even if we cannot talk like we want. God Bless you all.
xx

Dearest Father,
Please continue to keep Mick in your loving embrace. Heal him, make him well. Give him strength, and all he needs to overcome all of this. I pray that you will bring us together soon. Let us share this love that we have for one another. I pray in Jesus' most precious, loving name. Amen

Father,
Please help me, guide me. Tell me what is your plan for me? I feel like i've been living a tragic story for so long. Please show me the way, help me to overcome all of this. To step out into the sunlight and not be afraid. Please Father, I'm begging for your guidance, for your direction. In Jesus' mighty name. Amen

Please Dearest Father,
Watch over my Mick as he starts his travels again and keep him safe for me. Please let him feel my love, and bring us together as soon as it is possible. In Jesus' mighty name. Amen

Dearest Father in Heaven,
I thank you for opening my eyes, I thank you for this life today and everyday. I am sorry for letting my emotions overcome me at times. Thank you for allowing me a man that understands me. We have definitely our share of problems, (distance and such) but we do have something very strong between us and I am very thankful for that. Thank you for my children, who are a constant light in my life. Thank you for my beautiful friends, and my mom, who throughout everything are always there with me. I can't thank you enough times for helping me through this. I had many many words on here, and through my other friend Lynda, that truly helped me to deal with this and I appreciate each and every one of you. I know I ask a lot, but could you please pray for my daughter Mariah. She came home from school yesterday with a fever and sore throat. She has had a very bad cough for months that I have had her in for several times, she has been on numerous antibiotics for various things(ear infections, strep throat, and pneumonia) Well, they finally took a chest xray last night and her one lung is completely covered in this pneumonia. I don't know how she has been managing as she has. Please pray with me that she recovers quickly from this, and starts to feel better again. She is only 5 years old. Also, please, if you would, continue to pray for Mick... He and I worked out what was wrong between us, and it was the distance yet again that puts those horrible feelings there at times. We are generally pretty good about it, but its overwhelming when other things start falling apart as well. Please pray that we continue to communicate as best we can, and that we are allowed to be together soon. Thank you so very much for your prayers, for everything. It means the world to me.

xx Stephanie

Hello all,
I come to you tonight to update you on things going on with me... not a lot to report. Mariah is still very sick. Now Austin is coming down with it as well. But he doesn't seem as bad off as my dear Mariah. Please say a prayer, if you would, that they are both in good health and driving mom crazy again soon. I just want my babies to feel better. Second, things are the same with Mick right now. I haven't spoke with him in a few days, I'm a bit worried because he really has not been very well, his immunity has to be really worn down. I think he might have caught something in the hospital when he had his surgery. Please pray for him to regain his health, and to be safe in all of his travels. To please rest as much as possible, and for us to find a way to come together very soon. I know, its a mighty request, but if you wouldn't mind, I would appreciate it very much. Also, please keep my sister Katrina in your prayers... she has been having a rough patch lately herself, but she always remains strong in her beliefs. And for my sister Barbara, to receive the job that she just interviewed for. Please pray for Deb and her family to find peace and serenity, and guidance, and for them all to regain their health. I pray good things for all my brothers and sisters in Christ. May we all be rejoicing in God's blessings. Thank you so much xx

thank you for praying for my babies, they are feeling a bit better. I am taking Mariah back into the doctor next week, so hopefully her xray will show improvement. Please continue to pray that the Lord will bless this relationship that I have with Mick and that we will come together. I am so up and down all the time... I appreciate all of your prayers from the bottom of my heart. Thank you all for the candles you have lit for me too. I am sorry I haven't had moment enough to thank each of you personally. May God release his blessings to you all and soon. xx Stephanie

oh, and please if you would, add my dear friends Robert and Lynda to your prayers again as well. Robert is ill, and dearest Lynda, she is pregnant again and working many many long hours. Please pray for them both. God Bless! xx

My baby girl, Mariah, is very sick again. I am getting ready to leave to take her to the doctor. This has gone on too long. Please pray with me that they will do something to help her this time. Thank you all xx