Today at church, a friend of mine told me that she believes that the Lord wanted her to tell me that I'm going to deliver this baby vaginally. and then she prayed for me. my first thought after this, was: "But how?" Though I didn't ask, and as soon as I thought it, I also thought "don't worry about how, just trust God to do it." So I am going to do that. So now I'm still going to keep my doctor (who is an OB) and let him plan the cesarean, even though I'm trusting God to carry out labor and delivery of this baby. In His own way. I will no longer fear and keep asking all these questions of how this baby is going to be born. It feels like such a huge burden off my shoulder.

Know what? My mom told me Friday, that Thursday night she had a dream that I was in labor and I was calling for my mom to come and help me while I was naturally birthing this baby. and that I gave birth to the baby and it was a girl. I said to my mom, "How sweet! I love that dream, Mom."
(update)
I went to see the dr on Wensday, and got to hear the heartbeat. I get to deliver in a closer hospital (if I make it, lol).
Please keep praying that everything would work out and that I wouldn't walk in fear but in faith. To even think of possibly of cesarean, I get fearful and emotionally upset. Though I look forward to seeing my new little one. I long for summer when I'll get to finally hold him or her. and to finanally see what kind of entrance this little one will have.
thank you. *HUGS*