Dear Lord. I am angry, I am angry with you and yet I know I have no right to be! But here I am again, back to square one - I take one step forward then get shoved ten back! Lord, you know how alone and scared I've been over these past months. Scared over my financial situation, the fact that I have no job but I have a mortgage and bills to pays every month. And Alone because there is nobody else in my life that I can turn to when times are hard for me, nobody who is there to shoulder my burden and comfort me when I need solace. Every night I prayed that you would carry me through these troubling times, that you would stand by my side and be there for me when I needed someone. There is an old saying that goes 'God helps those who help themselves' and I truly believe that! I have struggled and strived to get myself interviews for job positions I know I would be perfect for and every time I get knocked back and turned down flat! Why?? Oh Lord, please tell me why? Why am I being put through such constant rejection? I truly cannot stand this anymore, I cannot take anymore rejections and I cannot take the financial worry that is hanging over my head now - Why are you doing this to me lord? I have prayed and prayed and asked you to open a door for me, but everytime it gets slammed in my face, and I do not know why? Sometimes I feel like you have forsaken me. I know that I have much in my life to be thankful for, and I know there are those in worse positions than mine, and I know that sometimes I'm my own worst enemy and I've let myself and you down at times. But you know the heart of me Lord, you know I try to be a good person who always puts other before himself, all I ask Lord is that you please help me now, Help me help myself, open the door for me please! Please also Lord, watch over my Mom & Dad, my family and friends - they are all I have. Amen