How are you doing? God is so good! He knows exactly what we need. I expect great miracles to come in your life!
Continue to pray for yourself everyday in the way that I prayed for you. That prayer is a way of praying that God gave me last year to intercede for others, I call it the A-B-C's of intercession, and it can be duplicated. I do not condone form prayers, but, using the instructions the Lord gave me, I have seen many victories by using this formula and of course taking into consideration the individual and their needs. The formula is like this-
A-ACKNOWLEDGE that God is able, and is at work in your life and give Him the rightful position as Lord and Savior. Make us AWARE of and desirous for His Word, Work, and Way. B-BIND our minds to the mind of Christ, our will to the will of God, and our actions to the Fruit of the Holy Spirit, BLESS us with the supernatural abundance of Your Health, Wealth, and Strength. C-CRUSH the authority of Satan and his lies, the authority of Word and Generational Curses, and the authority of anything that stands in the way of God's destiny-(you name it) and COVER with the annointing and the blood of Jesus, His grace, mercy, truth, life, light, faith, love, joy and peace, cover with every good and perfect gift (you name what you need here to) and then praise God for it. It is simple and easy and it works because it is from God.
Lord, Bless her and keep her in your loving arms. Hold her up and deliver her from Satan's attack. Encourage her to continue to walk in the knowledge that you are in control and that she is your child. Wrap her up in your love. In Jesus Name, Amen

YOUR STORY IS VERY TOUCHING. GOD SAID BY HIS STRIPES YOU ARE HEALED. WE AS SAINTS NEED TO HAVE THE SAME DETERMINATION AS THE WOMAN WITH THE ISSUE OF BLOOD. SHE SAID IF I CAN ONLY TOUCH THE HEM OF HIS GARMENT, THEN I KNOW I CAN BE MADE WHOLE. STRIVE TO TOUCH THE HEM OF HIS GARMENT AND HE WILL MAKE YOU WHOLE

Beatrice,
God has heard your crys. Did you know that in the Bible it says that the spirit makes intercession for us with groanings that can not be uttered. I have been there. When words would not form and my heart hurt until I did not think that I could live anymore. When God was my only hope and yet I did not know how to hold back the wails of grief long enough to say the words that I thought I needed to say to be able to get what I needed most. He heard me and he answered me. He loves you so much and He already knows your pain. He has experienced it with you. You were never alone or abandoned. Your were never unloved or lost. He held you in the palm of His hand and You are written on His heart.
I have lived a rough life too. My father was very abusive and I have suffered many illnesses also. From cancer to Rheumatoid arthritis and liver damage and migrains, and Fibromyalgia, and hypothryoidism plus much, much more, God is always faithful to see me through and bring me out on the other side with a testimony of his healing touch. I am amazed at how that childhood abuse translates into a spirit of affliction that makes you continue to suffer years later. I know that I have forgiven my earthly father and been set free from a spirit of affliction. I did not know that is what it was until God removed it from me. I was actually bent over and could not put my shoulders in their proper place. One day my pastor prayed for me and I began to stand up straight for the first time in years. I know that the years that I spent holding Dad responsible for what he did were wasted and fruitless. I had tried my best to go on with my life and finally one day, God showed me how I had buried this hatred, unforgiveness and bitterness so that no one could see it, but that he could not ignore it and could not get around the garbage pile I had created, to reach me and heal me completely. It was sin, pure and simple. Not one I knew I was committing. It was unconcious and yet it was sin. We are to forgive seventy times seven and yet how? We need healing to be able to do this. But, just recognizing that unforgiveness is a sin, often helps us to overcome it. See it for what it is and be able to commit it to God and start fresh. The next thing is to release the scars. I had a very bad accident several years ago and had scar tissue form they did a lot of things, therapy where they pushed on it (just like God pushes on our hard hearts trying to free them from scars), to injections (just like God injects his truth to soften scars and bring healing) but this scar was stubborn, and was causing paralysis and strange and horrible sensations in my finger, and eventually, threatened the loss of my finger because it was squeezing off the blood supply that could have healed it. Finally the surgeon cut out the scar and then I had to push on it every day to keep it from reforming.
A very painful process, but, in the end, very beneficial.
So I am going to pray for you now to be healed from all of the scars that have formed a covering to shield you from the hurt but that have also limited God's access to you. Pray this out loud for yourself as well . Telling Satan exactly how he is to get out of your life. NOW.
Dear Heavenly Father, you alone know how deep this pain runs. You know that this hurt is terrible. That the very people who were supposed to love and encourage her, have done the exact opposite and left her feeling unlovable and unworthy of having the good things you have planned for her to experience.
Bring healing to the hurt, and bind her to your will so that she will be able completely leave this past of hurt behind her where it belongs. Because of this stronghold of abuse and the resulting spirit of inadequacy and the inability to be able to trust you, as a Father, because she has not had the example of what one really should be in her life, she has fallen victim to Satan's attacks and is left open for future ones. So, right now we crush (destroy) satan's authority in her life. We crush the authority of the spirit of abuse and the authority of the spirit of oppression. We crush the authority of the spirit of unforgiveness, bitterness, anger, rebellion and hatred. We crush the authority of the spirit of infirmity in her body and we declare that she is the healed of the Lord. She will live, and not, die, and declare the works of the Lord. We crush the spirit of lack, and poverty. Father, restore her to completeness. Take the sword of Your Word--that is sharper than any two edged sword, and use it to cut out the scars that have built up around the areas that you need access to for her healing to begin. Father, that as you have revealed to me, that scars have cause her to be paralyzed (by fear)-so that she can not move forward into her destiny, I crush the authrity of the spirit of fear and unbelief that limits her from moving forward and being able to grow deeper in you. And just as scars can cause paralysis, they can cause sensitivity (too much or too many feelings or sensations) and insenstivity (the inability to feel or sense things) as well. I crush the authority of a lack of feelings or a lack of sensitivity to your spirit; and of oversensitivity to others and their ability to affect the way she feels about herself, her life and her relationships, or improper sensitivity to the lie of satan and to responding to it in negative ways that leave her feeling useless and unable to deal correctly with just about anything that comes up in her life. And just as scars can cause problems with our mobility and our senses and feelings they can do the most damage by limiting the flow of blood to the area that needs the blood applied the most-- the very blood of Jesus that can break the yoke of bondage. And so, I crush the authority of the spirit of Satan's lies that tells her that she is not worthy of a touch of God. I crush the authority of the damn of the devil that he has erected that holds back the flood of living water and the blood of Jesus and keeps her hostage behind the very walls that were erected to protect her when she could not deal with the pain. The suffocating hold of that snake called Satan that squeezes the very life blood out of her heart and and curses her to live without that healing flow touching her and changing her into what you intended her to be. I crush the authority of every attack on her health and her life. You said in Romans 8:1 & 2 , :"There is therefore now no condemnation to them that walk not after the flesh but after the spirit. But, the law of the spirit of life in Christ Jesus, hath set us free from the law of sin and death. And just as the law of life triumphs over sin and death I crush the authority of sin, death, hell and the grave that you have already freed her from. Your laws our Higher, Your ways are Higher, Your Thought are Higher, and Your Truth is Everlasting. Praise be to You Forever for Your Victory. We glory in that victory that sets us free from the need to fear and we thank you that you are able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think. And now that these strongholds have been crushed into tiny rubble, that can never be erected again because your blood is now able to flow freely and erase all of the hurt and pain. I ask that you cover your daughter, the princess that you created, with every good and perfect gift. Cover her with your annointing and your blood, Cover her with the strongholds of your truth, your life, your light, your way, your grace, your mercy, your love, your joy, your peace, your forgiveness, your faith, your healing touch, your power and glory, your wealth, your health, your strength, your sweet spirit. Remove pain from her body and let her walk daily acknowleding that you are the reason that she is such a miracle. Declaring to everyone that you are the Almighty God who took the ashes of her life and made something more beautiful than she could ever have imagined. Let your glory touch her and let everyone know that it was you who brought life again to dead, dry bones and breathed not only life, but, abundant life into her. Prepare her for your work and make her wise to understand exactly what you want her to do and how to do it so that it will bring you the most glory. And, Lord, though we know that no earthly man can do what you can, send her a husband to love her and show her the love that she always deserved. Give her a man who loves God and her,and her child more than his own life. Bring him quickly and bless her with a supernatural abundance of all that she needs in the mean time. You alone know her heart and her needs, so I ask you to intervene in every area of her life. Bind her mind to the mind of Christ, and her Will to the Will of God, and Her Actions to the Fruit of the Holy Spirit. Keep her heart and her mind stayed on you and her focus on the goal.
In Jesus Name, Amen
PS--did you know that the bible says that Job was restored after he prayed for his friends. He took his eyes off of himself and thought about others needs before himself and that touched God's heart and triggered his restoration. This is the perfect place to find someone to pray for. Love in Christ.