Please do not separate my boyfriend and me. Please renew our love as soon as you can. Our relationship has gone the course with issues. His main one is stability with work and mine is dealing with sexual abuse pain. Even now as I am in my early 40s, I just can't keep a relationship. I have so much pain, anger, hurt, disgust, self loathing, that I cannot trust - I fall in love and panic, destroy it - push them away and then suffer because I am alone missing them once again. It is a lot to deal with and I need to be healed, so I can love properly. Please heal me soon. Please don't take this man away too - I really love him and he is the first person I truly confided in about my situation and he has been patient and tried to help as much as he can. I love him, don't send him away. Thank you. Please bless all those who suffer from sexual abuse. It's not the act itself, it's the lies, the cover ups, the lifelong agony of not knowing who you are.