This has been an absolutely horrible time for me and I am looking for hope. I have a wonderful new job and all the guys I work with are great. We were in Israel in January and this is what renewed my faith in God. I was raised Catholic and my parents have a very strong connection to the church/Lord. I know that is the way to go - sometimes I stray. I have been in this relationship for 2 years giving the man the benefit of the doubt and wanted to trust him. I want a man that will stand by me in good times and bad - I do that for people, why can't I have that? I prayed that my relationship was renewed. I prayed that we could have a fresh start and that he would stay here. He's been telling me how much he loves me until I find out that he has been with another woman? What is that? That is not love. You stay beside each other day after day and work through things. GOD, I do not understand what you are trying to teach me. I have been sick all week, out of work for 2 days, but after praying last night I did feel better and whether I wanted the answers or not, I got them today. How can a woman who knows I am still with my boyfriend say she does not care and is going to see him tonight, stay in a hotel and I am here alone feeling so betrayed. He lied to me - why? Why keep me hanging. I don't understand the messages, but I did find the "signs" - signs to get on with my life and not love this man any more. It's hard. Why does he get a new love, what about me? I am so confused, but I still want to belive in God - that there is a plan for me. I just wish I knew what it was. I just am sick and tired of being let down and feeling used and alone. This has been a very trying time - once again. Please God any sign today of what will be good in my life, not how much my boyfriend and his woman are in love. Too much for me to bear, too much. I needed someone and now he's been giving to someone else. What about me?