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njb245

Peace of Mind

Here I am praying again about the same thing - my boyfriend, now ex boyfriend. He is going to see the other woman tonight and I need peace of mind. She has a man she lives with? Two kids? She knows we were still involved this week and still insists on loving him. I have been betrayed and I want to have some type of answer from God. This just doesn't seem fair. I am the one they put down? They get to be together tonight in bliss and I am home alone in anger, disgust and deceipt. Why should they have a good night. I know this isn't a prayer, but I need some justice. It's been a horrible week. Maybe I am putting out too many requests. I got my answer, i should move on but love is hard.

Update - 4 months ago:

I am more at peace now. I had a conversation with my ex boyfriend and he was honest and open about what happened. He said he really needed me emotionally and I just kept ignoring him and pushing him away. He said he never did this before and is very sorry. I had sent him a text mail the other day and said I could learn how to forgive him if he led the way and he did. He said he loves me and will for the rest of his life. Right now he is 6000 miles away for work and she is not near him. There is a chance I may visit so we can talk more and see if we can renew our love. Forgiveness is powerful. I do not like being betrayed, but I do know I was in a horrible depression over the past abuse and I just couldn't fully participate as a solid girlfriend. Communication should have been first, but it wasn't. I hope this can be overcome and that God brings us back together with a renewed love. I have never loved anyone like this before and I have never wanted to change and get over the abuse - but for him, I was willing to risk it all. I pray to the Lord that the right thing happens. We are still saying we love each other... Who knows.

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Tony_C
Tony_C Philadelphia

God, bless this woman with your graces to live strong and recognize she is special and does not have to compare herself to anyone. Give her strength to move forward, and if it be your will guide her boyfriend back to her love. Give her peace, and allow her to realize that there is nothing wrong with her, and she is your child, to whom you have great care and love for. Hlep her understand that when she is feeling despondent she only need think about your helping hand and she will get through the day with peace of mind. I ask this in the name of Jesus. Amen.

njb245, have faith and it is ok to vent, just remember you are a special person in God's eyes, and no one can ever take that away from you. Hang in there, and remember you never know where God is going to lead you tomorrow. That is what is so great about life. Never lose faith or hope. May God bless you and bring you peace.

njb245 - 4 months ago: Thank you Tony for the kind words. It seems that you have learned some very hard lessons. If it helps you any, I have decided to forgive my ex-boyfriend. Now that does not mean we will be able to have a relationship, but I stand by my values and understand there had to be something wrong for these things to occur. I refuse to take the blame, but I do believe we were tested. It is more peaceful for me to forgive him and give myself peace than to hold anger and resentment. Life is short. I still love him, was very upset, betrayed, but decided that I will take pity on him instead. In order to do such a thing, he must have been lonely, depressed and trying to fill a void within himself. I do not think it is right, but it is up to him to deal with it, not me. It is up to God to decide whether we heal together or separate. In the meantime, I choose to be the stronger one and teach him values, trust and open communication. In return, maybe we can both learn something. I do not like the thought of this other woman at all - but again, I take pity on her for being so desparate to be with a man that has a woman of two years and he is still saying he loves me (obviously confused). My life will either continue with someone knew that will love, honor and cherish me or this man will require a miracle to step up to the plate and make all things right again. That is a tall order. Tony, it is possible, but baby steps.
drmik63
drmik63 Quebec, Canada

Heavenly Father, please be with njb245 during these difficult times. Bless her with guidance, hope, love, and peace of mind. Walk with her on her journey through life. Amen.

Restore24
Restore24 Holden Beach, NC

njb245 Thanks for your prayer. I know what your going through, I feel the same way. Why do i hurt so much and she has it made. But you really don't know what their doing. He may be thinking of you. Don't worry about how you pray to GOD, he looks and knows your heart. Thats what pleases him. I'll be praying for you. GOD BLESS.

njb245 - 4 months ago: Thanks. Even if he was thinking of me, how do you forgive something like that? I prayed for you and Donna on another site - always good to have other outlets :)
LivinInchrist

God Our Father, in Jesus' name, restore total joy into the heart of njb245, you are our first love, and we praise your holy name. Heal this heart and restore peace deep into the soul. Lord, we know that justice is yours, and we trust in your mercy and love. BVM please intercede. Amen

DEMI
DEMI ANCHORAGE

THIS IS WHAT THIS SITE IF FOR.....TO HEAR YOUR CRIED WHEN YOU AR BROKEN. GOD IS GOING TO MEND YOUR BROKEN HEART JUST LEARN HOW TO LEAN ON HIM. YOU DID NOT PLACE THIS IN THE FORM OF A PRAYER BUT YOU NEED TO. WE ARE JUST INTERCEDING IN PRAYER FOR YOU BUT GOD HAS YOUR ANSWER

njb245 - 4 months ago: I am SO happy for you. I read your note earlier and just filled up with tears. You do such good to everyone, it's your turn. Smiles upon you... God is listening.