Dear Lord i know i have made several request for prayers and i dont mean to be a bother this site is just all i have to turn to right now.... the lord has blessed me with a very good job i am so thankful, i still have law problems hanging over my head no word yet so i am thankful... BUT scott has drifted away from me
i have tried over and over to be there and talk to him, in front of me he says he cares about me and he would never turn his back on me, but he never comes home, even tells me he will be back and never comes back, he says its not what i think, i know he is having financial trouble as bad as i am, but i have always stuck by him and helped him whenever he needed it, when i was successful i help so many people not to get anything in return but because i thought thats what friends do and i never really had a family that cared about me so i always hoped to be included in someones family just be a part of someone or belong somewhere, scott says we have to move etc, he says he would never leave me homeless but i am worried, and i am so lonely being here and coming home alone always... but i wonder is he living somewhere else already i pray not, dont get me wrong he is always nice and kind to me and loving, i know times are hard for us and i know he is fustrated but i need to know i am not alone that he cares and its not what i think but i am scared, i hope now that i am not successful he doesnt love me as much... it seems everyone did that to me, but i never thought he would, i am so depressed with so many problems going on i just needed someon to turn to, to be held and told it will be ok just the warmth of a hand that loves me
my family was so unloving only cared when i did something financial, trying to please people is half the reason i am in trouble now, but i know i am to blame also for being stupid
as sad and pathetic as it may be i really and honestly am starting to wonder have i ever been touched by a hand that loved me unconditionally, not even my parents hugs were not an option, i just want to be loved, i know scott makes me feel so loved when we are together, i know i could be wrong about thinking i am losing himi pray i am, but PLEASE PRAY FOR ME i need your prayers and GOD in my life so much.
i know he will bless me, please pray for me pray for us.