Its me again asking for prayers and gods help
i can stay at my place but i am running short on funds this month please pray that i get the money and can pay my rent by tuesday i have to:
please touch scotts heart to get in there and resign the lease for me for a year so i will have a place to stay and nothave to worry for a while, i dont know if scott will ever come back home to me its not looking good, he claims his mom wants him to live with her for a while so she can help him out, im sure this is a lie , i wish it was true but i really doubt it, but i pray god sends me someone to be with me and hug me and hold me that will love me even now that i have nothing. im trying my best to hold it together i know god is still blessing, i wish i didnt have to keep asking for help but i am so alone i feel so useless, and unwanted by anyone, my own sister says she is busy if i call her and she is home with her fiancee, today no one called me at all, i dont know what to do anymore but i dont want to be homeless please pray that i get the rent money by tuesday please and that i can get back on track, god has blessed me so much with a new job that i love and hopefully be able to stay at he apt as long as i pay the rent by tuesday ,im so scared and alone, i need a hug and warmth of another so badly i just want to feel love family friends just feel included i dont have to be important to anyone i just want to mean something .. for someone to think of me and be near me thats al, just to feel loved. on easter i went to a hotel because i didnt want to feel alone i called everyone scott answered and said he would call me back but never did, no one else answered the phone hate to beg to come over or be included i know they al have families and friends i was just praying someone would have invited me , i want to live and survive and help others, i feel so pathetic asking for so much and for someone to care, i am just starting to see that my life is almost pointless, i really am a waste of space, unless i can become successful again i am no good to anyone and my noy deserve to be here.
i want to be here, but i may have been fooling myself i was born unlovable and maybe i should face it and realize im not worth the time.
so i am sorry this was so long i just need a few kind words of comfort if you could and your prayers are needed so badly
please PLEASE i am trying to hold on PLEASE