April 13 Thank You for all your prayers I ran into on of my brothers at a coffee shop not the one were i dont know were he is but still the same i was shocked we talked a little i didnt think well or say anything i wanted to I say!! God answered are prayers ,and I stood there like a dummy!! :( I feel like a dont no were to go from here or maybe I should just leave It alone I feel guilt and sorry for not making more of an effort when I had that chance I hardly know my nefews I am a bad uncle God fogive me

April 14, 730 am Thank you brothers and sisters I am trying not to cry in a coffee house !!I love you guys Thoughs are such beautiful prayers and things you said Thank you I am so blessed God bless you guys :) I am so happy that God brought me here to this site thank you jesus He always know what I need :)

April 15 I am thinking of going to church this sunday I dont go to church i havent been sence i was a child i was shown praying and God by my sister that died me and her prayed together all the time she never was afraid or compained the hole time she was dieing of cancer only wanted to make sure here little brother was going to be ok that is me she went to church when she was well enough when she died after 7 year battle the hole family was crying and sad but me becuase i new she was with God are father and she wanted that more that life its self she loved him so much. After that I still prayed all the time but alone and do not no the Bilble or church just what my sister teached me and God though prayer, for some reson I have been afaid to go to church all this time I dont now why ! its just been me and Jesus and I think my sister watching over me please help me pray that I pick a good church that i will like and feel like I do here with all of you my brothers and sisters .Thank You and God Bless

April 16 this is my dog that I love very his name is Tank the frist pic is him when hes cold and the second pic is when hes on vacation :) smile everyone!!

april 18 please if you could pray that I find some good renters :) thank you I need to rent out two of my rooms in my house to help with my bills sinces things have been slowing down with work I am afraid of leting people I dont know live with me and Tank But I need to get over that. I have been changing so much sinces i have found this website God Has been lifting me up and out of my shell Thank you all for your prayers God Bless you brother Ken

Been getting alittle light head with head ackes for a few day no big deal but it getting hard to breath heavy chest I am going to try a go to the doctor agin could u pray that my insurances is working now thank you and God Bless

19 april Thank you for all your prayers you are all so kind love you brother Ken :(

april 20 :(

April 21 I am feeling so many feelings and plage with guilt I dont know were to go from here I am lost I have hope for others but not for myself I am getting ill and I dont seem to care but I am scared its up and down latly a emotional roller coster I am sorry I havent been praying as much for u guys been filling weird pease pray this go's away and I find my way I am tierd its alway the same I want to committe to somming for the rest of my life and stop running

april 22 cant anyone feel bad around here lol I have been crying all morning reading alI these beautiful prayers dont know if I am anybetter but you guys give me more love !!!!! how could I not feel better I love you guys sooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am trying to shake this off what I been feeling and I know I need to go to the doctors I think I am afraid my family dosent have a good track recored with doctors or then giving us good news ;( I just want to kiss and hug everyone of you all my brother and sisters for not giving up on me thank you all . Now I am going to be Ok Dont worry remenber what Mr.Dan said about worring it is so true !! but I havent had much luck yet giving up that yet working on that :) God Bless you all you are all in my prayers I will get thu this I always do and if this is my time to be with God and Jesus Woooo Hooooo !!! I love them sooo much I cant wait to hug and kiss and lay at there feet and tell them how much I love them for eternity

I went to the doctor finaily because I was feeling worths and after they took my EKG said it looked like I might have had a hartattck already and said I need to go right now to the hospital and had my friend drive me to my blood pressure was very high and so they gave me some pills and nitro oxgen and did chest xrays bloodwork but at 1:00am I couldnt stand being in that hospital anymore and its the one that my mom had died in not to long ago so I left they wanted to keep me I just could stand being there I hate hospital I spent most my life watching my family die in them ! well I had to sign all this stuff saying that its not what they want and at my own risk to leave so I am going back today to do more test but I wont spend the night and my dog needs me anyway sorry I now I sound like a brat but I am realy afaid of the hospital more than dieing please pray that i dont need to stay in a hospital if I go i want to go in my sleep God Bless love Ken

Thank you for your support and prayers I am now waiting for the test results and my next appt. with the Dr. the meditcation that they have me on for high blood pressure aready has me feeling alittle better God Bless your brother Ken

I got a phone call from the hospital yesterday telling me that I need to get in to the dr. today that one of my test came back my bad cholestrol is very high and the good cholestrol is low what ever that means but they need to put me on meds now! they said my other test results will be in today so I have a appt. at 930 am with a primery dr. to refrerr . me to a cartaogest lol I cant spell that !! all these test and problems are making feel old and I am young I am not over weight just a little belly and I dont eat that bad I dont under stand why :( thank you for all your prayers .I feel like I am being attcked from all dreiction mentaly now my hart its making it harder and harder to stay positive thinking and not get depressed I am having a hard time praying witch is making me feel guilty to sorry you guys that I am so weak minded right now I am trying to snap out of this mood but its been hard I want my old self back so I can get to praying from my hart for you guys . Love your brother Ken

May 5 going to the doctors this morning every doctor is saying somthing different they spend 2 mins. with you and dont want to lisent to what the other doctor said or what happen before and before you know it they are giveing you another persiption mediction they are out the door to the next paient I decidited that if I dont take good care of my BODY how do I expect a stanger to care more than me so I am eating right and reading about blood presure and colesteral and take all your advice from you guys pease if you know any more let me know ! and I am starting with walking every night and working my way up to running or swimming Thank You for all you prayers this brother is running on prayer power and being healed by God We truly have something Great hear On Prayabout.com It is changing my hole life It is saveing my life Thank You All God Bless your Loveing Brother Ken

(May 9)Please pray for me That I can become more balances in my life not so up and down sometimes I feel so much and other times it is work to feel witch brings alot of guilt I want to live in the light of the Lord serving him please pray for this for me Thank you your brother Ken