GOD, ...... I AM FEELING VERY OVERWHELMED ...... I HAVE BEEN STRUGGLING WITH DEPRESSION FOR ALMOST FOUR YEARS NOW ...... IT HAS LEFT ME FULL OF FEAR AND DESPARATION ......
I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM EPHRAM IN ONE WEEK ...... I KNOW THAT HE IS DEALING WITH HIS OWN ISSUES ..... AND ..... THERE ARE THINGS THAT HE NEEDED TO GET DONE .......
HOWEVER, ..... A MUTUAL FRIEND OF OURS ...... (CO WORKER OF EPHRAM) ..... TELLS ME ALL THE THINGS THAT EPHRAM AND HER DO ...... THIS HURTS ME BECAUSE EPHRAM AND I HAVE NOT SPENT ANY TIME TOGETHER ....... (WE HAVE HAD A PHONE RELATIONSHIP SINCE MID OCT 2007) ..... I KNOW THAT THE REASONS FOR THIS ARE VALID ..... (SICK, TRANSIT STRIKE, WORK, DEATH OF HIS BROTHER) ..... BUT, I AM HURTING ..... IT MAKES ME FEEL UN IMPORTANT...... IT BRINGS ME BACK TO MY PAST ...... MY EX BOYFRIEND CHEATED ON ME AND LEFT ME FOR ANOTHER WOMAN ...... (THE START OF MY DEPRESSION) .....
UP UNTIL THIS POINT EPHRAM HAS ALWAYS RESPONDED TO ME ..... SO, ....... I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THIS "NO RESPONSE" MEANS ....... PLEASE LET HIM CONNECT WITH ME ..... AND ...... LETS SET A DATE TO FINALLY MEET ...... EPHRAM IS VERY SPECIAL TO ME ......