Pray that I will allow God to lead me down the right path. weather it be a new job or back to school. Things have gotten really bad. My husbands pay just doesn't cover all of our bills and leave any money for food. I have boys at home so I am applying for night jobs. Our house is falling apart around us. I try hard not to let the boys know just how bad it is but it is hard not to just sit and cry. I just excite during the day and can't wait to sleep at night. I have pushed away all of the people in my life. We no longer go to church because all I could see was the ugliness. I need myheart to be cleansed and I need the negativity to stop. I can't be happy for anyone because I am so sad.