My sweet dear child, please, PLEASE, dry your tears and listen to me! God doesn't hate you, he loves you, my lovely Mohana! If you have just read a few of the prayer requests posted here, you would see oceans of suffering!!! You have the greatest job with the best money right now and you are only 26 yrs old, my dear sis! I know how loneliness can eat away your soul, I really know it, but still you have your mother, and YOU WILL HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS SOON at this new company! First of all try to make yourself acquainted with experienced women because you need some adult guidance, Mohana! You ran too fast into relationships, because you are so hungry for love! If you knew how much I understand you! But this way you can only get hurt, having more and more wounds. Stop it, my dear sister, slow down! Be grateful for what you achieved, because it is great, and you achieved it all alone! Be proud of yourself, and enjoy this feeling! Praise and pemper yourself, you deserve it! Now you will have enough money to buy new dresses, gift to your dear mother, to go to a movie or to have a dinner in a restaurant with your girlfriends! Think about it! Right now you need girlfriends much more than a boyfriend. You cannot make friendship with a man until you are desperate to marry soon for this discernible desperation scares away young men from you! Love-relationship needs a lot of patience since men don't want to rush into marriage as we all know it very well... That is why I try to make you understand the importance to slow down, to take it easy for a while! I don't mean to be "easy-going" about love, not at all! Love is very important in life, in everybody's life! I can see the despair on your photos - no smile, but a kind of worried tension which is strange on such a young and beautiful face. You are on a new workplace now, among new people who don't know anything about you. So PLEASE try to make a good impression on them, showing a more peaceful charming side of you in order to enchant them: men and women alike! Hide your fearful impatience and try to listen to other people around with empathy for their problems! Try to feel them out! and try to get to know as much about them as possible instead of dressing them into your illusions! DON'T HATE YOUR LIFE AND ESPECIALLY DON'T HATE YOURSELF!!! Mohana. You don't like yourself enough, that is why you torture yourself with this "I-am-going-to-be-mad" type of self-threats! STOP IT, PLEASE, my dear sis! Give yourself a break and look around in the world: in India, where you live, you can see a lot of unhappy pre-arranged marriages. You are lucky to not have been forced into a marriage like that! Look for the good thing in your life, and enjoy the good moments what every day gives you only you don't even notice it because of your obsession with marriage! It is fruitless to accuse God as the reason for your unhappiness, it is always the worst policy to make accusations or to call someone to account - especially God! These methods don't work with anyone, never! You can only ask God to grant you what you need as you would do with any person whom you want to do something for you... You cannot threat one or make him feel uneasy but rather you should try to please him if you really want your wish to be fulfilled. So be nice to others as well as to yourself, Mohana! Make friends (only FRIENDS!) at this wonderful new company and enjoy the victory you have just gained! It is a great thing, you don't appreciate it enough! You should buy a bottle of fine vine, cook some tasty meal and celebrate this great success with your mom! Drink your mother's health and your happiness! God bless you, dear Mohana! Love from your sister Brig