Last fall I came to this site and asked all of you to pray for my unborn child. His father and I had been through so much, we had been through four miscarriages and one beautiful little boy born very prematurely (he was 24 wks gestation and too little to make it) and I just didn't know what to do. I was so very scared. I didn't know if I could take losing another child. I had accepted that I would probably never have a baby. I felt like everything was just outside of my grasp. I was so apprehensive about being pregnant. All I could do was ask God "why?" I didn't know it at the time but He did answer me, he simply said "because it's time."
I have always believed that things come to us in their own time. Sometimes it's so hard to wait for those things we want, sometimes it seems as if everyone else is getting what they want -- why can't I? But now I truly know that God has a reason for everything in our lives, both good and bad. I know this because the things that I've gone through have made me the person I am today. It has made me the mother that I am today. I am GREATFUL for my beautiful little boy. I see so many people who take easy, healthy pregnancies for granted. I see so many people who take their beautiful children for granted. They don't realize what a miracle both these things are. I know what it's like to feel like your arms are empty, to so badlywant to hold your own child that your arms physically ache. I see all these ignorant people who abuse and neglect their kids and I just want to beat some sense into them. They will never understand.
I have a beautiful, healthy little boy now. He's 13 weeks old and growing like a weed. It's such a miracle to see him growing and changing before our eyes. When he smiles at me I feel like my heart is going to burst and I feel the hand of God in my life. We named him Joshua Aaron. Joshua is also his father's name but we also had another reason for naming him Joshua. "Joshua" means "he whom God has saved" and I can't think of a more fitting name for my little boy.
Thank you to everyone who said a prayer for us. Your love and encouragement gave me so much comfort at a time when I felt so scared. To everyone who has children- please take a moment to thank God for the gift he's given you and then take another moment to pray for the people who ache to have that same gift. We take so much for granted, we have to start realizing the everyday miracles that are all around us. Thank you again and I pray that you all feel the hand of God in your life.