I posted a pray request yesterday, but I am feeling so low and beaten up that I need to spaek to someone or know that people are praying with me, just to help me through this difficult period.

I have four weeks to find a new job and no matter how hard I try I get discouraged. I feel so far from God that it isn't true. I am scared because of my financial problems, I am hurting because yet again I have failed and I feel so alone.

My wife is ill and I have to keep my worries/fears/concerns from her. But my head and hurt are about to explode. I am sorry for posting again, but just knowing that someone is praying with me is such a comfort. I know that I should look to GOD first. But I am just a sinful human being with all the frailties of man.
Please pray for me. I know that there are people with much bigger problems than mine and I pray for those people.
But I am hurting so much and the devil has offered me a way out called suicide. But I am fighting and its hard.