Good Morning Everyone,
I must say thank-you to everyone for the wonderful prayers. I 'm here still. I haven't been to sleep all night. I really hurting now and I don't want to be here and more. No, because of my faith I can't kill myself. But, I must God would call me home. I don't want to be here anymore. I really don't want to be here any more. I feel as though God is letting me suffer in my skin. But God Knows I can't kill myself either because of my faith. I let my son go visit a friend so that he won't see my pain and my suffering. I just doon't know what to do anymore. I have to remind myself to breath. I have to make a list of things I need to do to get really for work in the mornings because I really need this job. I have to remind myself to do lots of things. But, now I just don't want to be here any more. I'm ready to go home now. When I was coming to work this morning. I heard a lady talking about a woman who jumped out of her top floor window and how it was a mess yesterday. All I could think of is what a luck woman. She's no longer here. But, I know I can't kill me and go be with God. But, it would be nice if he calls me home.

Good Morning Everyone,
I must say thank-you to everyone for the wonderful prayers. I 'm here still. I haven't been to sleep all night. Iim really hurting now and I don't want to be here anymore. No, because of my faith I can't kill myself. But, I wish God would call me home. I don't want to be here anymore. I really don't want to be here any more. I feel as though God is letting me suffer in my skin. But God Knows I can't kill myself either because of my faith. I let my son go visit a friend so that he won't see my pain and my suffering. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have to remind myself to breath. I have to make a list of things I need to do to get really for work in the mornings. I really need this job. I have to remind myself to do lots of things. But, now I just don't want to be here any more. I'm ready to go home now. When I was coming to work this morning. I heard a lady talking about a woman who jumped out of her top floor window and how it was a mess yesterday. All I could think of is what a lucky woman. She's no longer here suffering. But, I know I can't kill me and go be with God. But, it would be nice if he would call me home.

Good Morning everyone,

God has led this lady to me. She works with the Police Department. She's trying to find out what can be done for me. She said she's not making any promises. But, she is going to see if she can help me and my son. The person that I now live with gave me a notary eviction notice, they want me and my son and all my belongs out of their house by September 1st. So she’s going to see if there is anything that can be done for me. Pray for me that doors will be open for a place to stay. That’s all I want.

Morning,

I realized a lot of things. I’m not Jesus and I’m not Job. Therefore long suffering I’m no good at this. I’m also convinced that I’m going to Heaven because I’m living in hell. I have also come to the conclusion that people are kind. They really don’t want to know your suffering and they do all they can to avoid you. They will tell you something I guess so that their conscience is clear. Also I realize when something is too good to be true, 9 times of 10 it usually is. My final realization is God is either mad or just upset with me now. Either way I’m going through hell on earth. They say you only have peace in two places, in your home or in your grave. I’m feeling that it’s going to be my grave. God please I’m ready to leave this hell here on earth. I’m praying that I’m won’t live long. I am praying that God will let me out of “all this hell”. Please Please God let out of all this hell, please.

Morning,

I’m up this morning. I tried not to be I took a lot of sleeping pills last night. But for some reason I still couldn’t go to sleep, for good. I reminded myself to breath. I write notes to help me get dressed in the morning. Like you need to brush your teeth, lay my clothes out ahead of time, don’t cry too much your eyes are already swollen and lastly but, not least. Try to see another day.

Good Morning Everyone,

I have the biggest smile on my face. I believe prayer changes everything. I am now in my new apartment with little to none hardships, God placed people in my life that opened doors for me. God is good. I’m so excited. I have my own place and it’s beautiful. I go for a meeting today with my lawyer about the accident. Please pray for me on this meeting that I will get more money than expected. I will remember to tithed also. This is another time I want to say thank-you God and everyone for your prayers and your candles you lit for me and my son. Also my son will be able to go to the same school as well.

Good Morning Everyone,

I would like to say thank so very much for your prayers and your candles. God is good. I went to see my lawyer yesterday and it wasn’t so good but, that’s ok too. I had someone to tell me that they had a car for me. But of course this was some time ago and this person is suppose to be getting the car inspected and the minor things wrong with it fixed. I have even offered money to help with the process. I got met with turn downs. I’m not complaining by no means. But, I really need a car, badly. My son is going to be on the basketball team and getting him to and from and also God forbids if he get any injuries and I would have to take him to the hospital. I’m also looking at the fact of me having to go grocery shopping, washing clothes, and just having to run errands. So I’m asking for prayers that the car get inspected and they tell me to come get the car. The family that is giving me the car is the family that also has sent me to court with my baby son. They cheated me out of his infant childhood and I think this is their way of trying to say they are sorry. I end-up giving shared custody to his father. Now their son has turned on them. The son has jumped on his father and fought him and called his mother everything in the book on names and all of this was done in front of law enforcement. He’s the son also is a Deputy Sheriff. The police was called to pull him off his father and also to put him out of the house. This has been and is a ongoing battle. So they have come to me for forgiveness and I have forgiven them. They know that I need a car and they have several. I’m just asking that the process just to speed up a little so that I can get this car.