I am so sad by the fact that this may be the end. And I am confused that I forgave so easily (though everything changed) his infidelity when we broke up. It isn't that it is okay, it is that the Lord made me realize many things. I also realize he may not be with me ever again, and we are coming to accept that. My family and some of my friends strongly encourage me to cut off all contact.

Dear Father,
It is so hard to cut off contact with a man I have shared a life with for 12 years. Father, this evening I go and meet with the pastor at my church. The very first time I have ever done this and I plan to open up about everything. I don't expect immediate answers but I do know that there is strength in prayer and that my church praying for and with me will surely lead to good. As You tell us father All things work together for good for those who love the Lord. Again Lord, be with my ex fiance today. Where he is right now, what he is doing. Touch his heart with your tenderness, make stronger in him the longing to find the spiritual side of him. Let him find no rest in the way he was raised and instead be drawn to those who emmulate Christ. Forgive me Father for not showing him Christ in these 12 years. In the smallest ways maybe, but I had such an opportunity and I failed You Lord. And I failed him. Please Jesus, never give up on this young man. His life is so filled with pain, anger, hatred, blame, confusion. He loves me Father, but he also feels I should be something I am not and I know it tears at him too and led him into temptation. My family Lord just wants to see me happy, secure and cared for by a Christian man. It is so hard for them to see that in some cases in life you sacrifice happiness for others, yet I am not sure that is what you are asking me to do. Lord please speak through the Pastor as I meet with him in what I hope to be several meetings today. Father help him to take charge over his own spirit that the devil has captured and resist ANYTHING and ANYONE that who becomes a lure to evil things such as drugs, alcohol, worldly behavior. May he "abhor what is evil. Cling to what is good." Romans 12:9 I pray as Stormie Omartin did that he wilol be repulsed by tempting situations to do any of these things and give him courage to reject them. Give me the words so that when/if he turns to me for counsel, that I will give him strength through your words spoken from my tongue.
Lord, he has a strong desire for money and he now has it, and his family all praises him for his financial successes. But Lord you say "Those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition." 1 Timothy 6:9 Lord he knows no better. Please do not stop making yourself known to him. Please Father never quit knocking at his heart's door to come to you.
Help me to know YOUR will and to ABIDE BY IT. Wrap your arms of love around him Jesus.
In your most precious name I pray,
Amen