Dear Lord Father,

First, before anything, i pray that You place Your hand on everyone using this site and that You heal them and are with them and just to move them to where they desire to be, and even more. i think You for giving us all a site like this where we can join together and pray, from all around the world. i really thank You for touching so many lives and for just blessing all of us in different ways.

today i pray for strength and clarity. i find myself in an unfamiliar place. for once, i dont have distractions. i dont have many friends here (which i am okay with), i dont have much of a social life (again, which i am okay with), i have all that i need-- yet i feel so far from You. for once i dont have distractions that i can place blame (for lack of a better word) on but ironically, i feel so deattached and dead. i dont know where You are. i dont hear You, i cant see You, i feel alone and in a secular world. i dont remember how to pray, i dont remember how to dedicate myself to You. i fear the future and whats to come. i dont know what You have in store for me careerwise and im afraid of being lonely and stressed with finances. i dont believe in myself yet when i step back, i see that ive been given everything than most ppl have-- i have my health, a loving and supporting family, incredible strong faith filled friends, an amazing bf who loves me despite my stubbornness and mood swings, an education, physical beauty-- yet, all i see are my faults and how i lack talent and the drive. its like im standing right at the beginning line with every tool that i could ever possess yet my own fear keeps me from beginning. i cant feel You in my prayers, i dont see You..i keep waiting and pushing it off for a time later but that keeps getting pushed back more and more. i question whether i will succeed and i rely too much on what others think and whats going on in their lives. i sit here every single day with no thoughts running through my mind and i slowly feel myself going numb. please bring me clarity. remove this anger and bitterness from my heart. forgive me for my big mistakes. forgive me for my shortcomings. calm my temper. make me a child again and help me to really see You working in my life. bring me opportunities and please clarify who You want me to be with for the rest of our lives. i need You Lord Father. i feel so dead and numb inside without You..show me clear, real, concrete steps i should be taking..give me motivation, open my eyes and my heart and most especially melt down my hurt and bitterness and let me see the good in people..let me be the one to help them..