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kienne

Desperate for help.

My whole life I have always fended for myself. I was raised in a house that didn't even acknowledge my existance, unless I did something wrong. My father constantly verbally and physically abused me. My mother used to lock me in my room for days at a time, she said it was for my own protection, I say it's because she wasn't strong enough to get out. At the age of 9 I went to live in a convent with 62 nuns. I loved them, I can honestly say it's the only time in my life that I remember feeling like i was truly loved. I was there for 3 years. When I left at the age of 12 and went home , I wasn't there very long. My mother found a new love interest at work, and left us. Anywhere was better than being home with my father, so I left too! I lived on the streets for 2 years stealing whatever I needed to survive. I would steal clothes off of peoples clothes lines, food from the store, hygiene products... etc... before I met the man I would end up marrying. I had three children with this man. One at 15, one at 16, and one at 17. 3 Babies being raised by a baby. But I tried my best. After about 3 years of marriage, my husband decided he didn't want the responsibilities of taking care of his family. He refused to work. As a matter of fact he refused to do anything. I was 19 years old, I had no formal education, 3 babies at home, and no matter how hard I tried , I couldn't get a job. I started stealing my childrens clothing, our food, whatever we needed. I got caught one to many times and ended up doing a 1 & 1/2 yrs prison term. I came home and went back to my husband, I had to he had my children. About 6 yrs into my marriage, my husband started beating on me. This went on for another 4 yrs. I woke up one day and said, "this is not going to happen to me" I packed my children up and took my car. We lived in our car for 2 weeks. All of our shelters were full. I went to the grocery stores everyday to steal food for my children. I stole cough medicine, and anything else we needed. I was lost. I prayed everyday, I asked God to help me. I was able to get my own apartment, my own furniture, the kindness of God's chosen really helped me when I needed it. I've been alone with my kids for 6 years now, they are all teenagers now. 15,14,and13. they're great, respectful, kids. They don't remember a lot from back then, Thank God. I put myself through school by myself. After 2 yrs of full time classes, I became a Nurse.
I worked hard and did my best to help teenage girls just like me. I developed over my whole life a deep and loving relationship with God. The Nuns I lived with really did save me, not only did they save me from being abused, but they planted the seed of Life in me. I didn't know it at the time, but as I grew and matured into a woman I understood. 4 months ago I was lifting an elderly patient and ruptured 2 discs in my back. The hospital is fighting my comp. They said it is my fault because I didn't do the lift properly.I literally have days that I have to crawl to the bathroom. Some days are good, I can move about slowly without pain.
I have applied for county help because my rent is overdue by 3 months, my power and phone are about to be shut off, I applied 30 days ago, they told me it could be upwards of three months before a determination is reached. All my life when I get to the point that I can't handle stress in my life, I go and steal what I need. It's all I've ever known. I was ordained as a non-denominational Minister in January. This time it's different. I have to be strong. I have to channel my energy into seeking out God's help. I no longer can use the "excuse" that I didn't know any better. I'm fighting Satan Himself here. I have incredible urges to just take what I need, I can't sleep at night. My kids and I are about to be homeless. I've always been a rock to my children, through God's help. I told Him, Lord I'm out of options. I have to do what I have to do. Please don't be mad at me. Please understand that no one is helping me. I heard Him say in a very clear and loud voice. " your only out of options because you've stopped looking" . "You always have options" " My children will help you, reach out to them". I refuse to lay my head down in shame from Him, I refuse to allow Satan to use my condition to put a distance on my relationship from Him. I refuse to believe as one of His Chosen Children that I really am alone. I have faith. So openly with His presence to guide me, I ask for help. Whether it be prayers, or donations. I pray for help. I reach out to all of my sisters and brothers in Christ. I need your help. The lord said, ask and you shall receive. Well fellow christians , I am asking. Please do not allow Satan to corner me. I need strength to push myself through this test. I need your help, please do not abandon me like so many others in my life.
I need prayers, and for those of you that can help me financially, please, I'm begging one christian to another. If you don't feel comfortable donating online because of all the internet scams there are, I'll give you my landlords name and address. You can mail your donation directly to him with my name and rent in the memo area. I am not a thief. If i was I would'nt be here, I would be out in the world handling my business sinfully. I have learned my lessons the hard way. I have grown in Christ. I have matured into accepting that I am a mere servant. God has big plans for me.
He who is kind to the poor lends to the lord, and he will reward him for what he has done. Proverbs 19:17

Sincerely
Kienne
kienneangela@yahoo.com

Update - 3 months ago:

Can someone please email me and explain to me how to light candles for others, and what the lit candles mean?

Update - 3 months ago:

Please everyone prayer for my friend 31catyears, she is also having some financial issues and could really use your prayers. Please also pray for that little 13 yr old girl Salma. Your in my heart sweetie. Please God Help them, be there for them. They need you!

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RedRoses

Lord wrap your loving and healing arms around your daughter and hear the prayers of her heart. Answer her prayers. Bring peace, love, and comfort. In Jesus' name I pray

jayasingh
jayasingh UAE

Heavenly Father in Jesus name I pray that be with the prayer of this dear children and bless them in a special way in Jesus Name I pray Amen

remedios
remedios phillipines

Dear Kienne,I admire your will that inspite of all the trials and difficulties that you went through.Your great glory is not in never falling but in rising up everytime you fall.My heartfelt prayers and wishes for you and your children.
Love and prayers,
Remy

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Ken_Natasha
Ken_Natasha USA and Ukraine

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that You will answer Kienne's peas for help. May Your Divine light, love, strength, courage, wisdom and guidance shine down upon her and bless her with the tools and means to support her family with pride. I pray also that You will heal her of all wounds physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. In the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Amen.

bry
bry england

"If we confess our sins (one to another) then God is faithful to forgive us our sins" so your "slate is wiped clean." When God forgives, He also forgets, so don't keep going on a guilt trip about sins that He has forgiven. Draw a line under the past and move on...... "The past is a heap of ashes" is how one wise person put it! You are never alone because Jesus promised that He would "NEVER leave you, nor forsake you" and He is incapable of lying. This is just one of the eternal promises of God, who would say to you "Think well of yourself my child." Think of yourself as God thinks of you. You are His beautiful, precious daughter, who He loves with a perfect Love. He sent His only Son to die for you just as much as anyone else, for "God has no favorites" so that, no matter what happens to you in this life, you are guaranteed a place in Heaven for all eternity, where all suffering ends and you will dwell in everlasting bliss! Seek divine healing for your back. Mine was healed in seconds, after years and years of suffering. Only accept healing from one who says that the Lord heals THROUGH them, it is NOT that they are the healer, and make sure they do not want money for the treatment, ONLY your well-being. God will guide you.Praying for you and yours. Love in Jesus and God richly bless you. Amen.

bry - 3 months ago: Hey kienne. Forgot to say check out www.FathersLoveLetter.com and find out just how much God REALLY does love you. It's life-changing!!!
coffeejams53
coffeejams53 Georgia

Dear sweet Kienne - You have been through such devastation. Please know in your heart that God forgives you for any misgivings - you did it to save your children, and he understands! I am so sorry that you have been through so much abuse in your life. Know that God has been with you through it all, as you always found a way to provide for them....even if it meant stealing. I don't know where you live, but you can go to your children's school counselors and ask them to help you through Care Team funds that every school in the U.S. has. As them to fill out a School Social Worker Referral Form and have the social worker call you - both counslors and school social workers will have a list of other resources. There are food and clothing pantries in abundance - and they are aware of all of these. You can also go to a social worker at the Dept. of Family & Children's Services (or a similar name) and they can help you with finances. Also go to Salvation Army, United Way (toll free 211 can give you 5 numbers with every call for other resources - just tell them what city you live in and what you need! You may call as often as you like!), Red Cross - SA & RC will have you make an appointment so try to get it NOW as it's the beginning of the month and they receive funds early on and it goes fast. The school counselor and school social worker can also give you the name of a therapist who will do counseling for free or at a very reduced cost...you can also go to your church. ALL pastors, ministers, priests are also trained counselors and there is NO FEE! I so hope that this has been helpful to you. You deserve all of God's blessings and miracles! My love to you and your children. May the peace of our Lord be with you and your daughters always. Stay strong! Keep the faith! Love, Joyce (an elementary school counselor who KNOWS the heartache you are feeling now, as well as the pain and suffering of on-going abuse by people you TRUSTED AND LOVED. May God bring you understanding and keep you safe.

Dear Father - I pray that you uplift this prayer request and all repsonses collectively that there will be more power for You to hear the cries of Your child who so desperately is in need of Your miracles. Drench her and her children with the blood of Christ that was shed for all at Calvary. Make it a blanket of protection from further abuse that has caused a heavy heart for so long. Make it a comfort, support, hope, happiness, financial assests in abundance, peace, tranquility, and beautiful tomorrows. Through the Sacred Heart of Jesus I pray. Amen

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mlbhistory
mlbhistory Omaha

I will pray for your overall situation but especially for your housing needs. Is there a Habitat for Humanity in your area? It isn't an instant solution to your housing situation but I have worked with them in Omaha and they do great things for people turning around people's lives by following the economics of Jesus. In Luke it says to "pray night and day, and to not lose heart". I pray Habitat can be part of your solution.

lightacandle

I pray that the Dear Lord will see you through and a miracle will take place in your live. One day I will be able to help you also, because I know that I will be blessed, so that I can help those in need. Please trust in God and look onto him alone, alone, not in man but put your tructs in God

mr_dan2
mr_dan2 NM

I pray to God above to send you His Blessings. He knows what to do. Your acceptance of His LOVE will make it happen for you. God bless you always. Dan PS the candles get your request higher up in the pages. The more candles you get, will lift your request to the top pages. God bless you and keep you and your children. In Jesus Name AMEN!!

didd68
didd68 Malta

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didd68
didd68 Malta

pray for the archangel Micheal he`s always there to cut all the negative things with his sword.May God be with you always and bless you and your children.love and light to you Godbless

tristan
tristan Houston, TX

Dear Sweet Jesus,
Please shower this family with Your financial blessings. Please let the hospital allow the workman's comp after her injury. Please give her strength, courage to endure and daily blessings.

One suggestion: Some of the local churches have a food pantry and also help with financial assistance. Please check into that in your area.
Modest Needs Web site
Please check this web site to see if it may be helpful to you.
http://www.modestneeds.org/
Be sure to scroll down the page to view the information.

memo
memo Los Angeles, CA.

May you be blessed today and always....
In Jesus Mighty Name I Pray..........
AMEN................

SCSunny
SCSunny Dallas NC

God moves when people pray. Mighty miracles and spiritual victories have been won as the Mighty Warrior Intercessors Army unites in prayer.
 Pray that all will receive a mighty impartation of the Holy Spirit for a great harvest
 Pray and believe God will change lives and ministries forever.
 Pray that God will move mightily, that His glory on Earth will intensify, and that thousands upon thousands will be born again and come into the Kingdom .
 Pray that we will see God move in every church and ministry . Let us see the enemy defeated, his plans cancelled through prayer, and the plans and purposes of God established in the lives and for His church around the world!
 Pray for an anointing to fall like rain from heaven to soak all of us with the presence and peace of God.
 Ask God to anoint us to do our job with grace, compassion, and the love of Jesus shining through.
 Pray for the people to have a hunger for the Word and Lord that cannot be satisfied.

tatums4
tatums4 Illinois

My sweet father I pray you pour out your blessings to this family. I pray that doors will open for this mother so she can provide for her family. I pray you fill her up with faith. I pray that her financial troubles will come to an end. I plead the blood of Jesus over this family, and I thank you Jesus for I know you will take care of them. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.