Been feeling very depressed, haven't talked to my ex in almost a month, but I have been praying for him consistantly. I feel like the lord has told me that if I'm not sure what to say, the best thing is to say nothing at all. That when the time is right he will give me the words but now is not the time. So I have done nothing to contact him. I have been trying to keep my focus on god, but have been struggling with keeping my spirits up, I pray daily for my relationship to be renewed, but know that if it's not in god's plan for me that it will not come. I need help in not wanting what god does not intend for me.I keep hearing in my head what someone said to me... If you look to god only when you are desperate then he will keep you in desperation. Anyway... thank you for any advice or prayers that anyone can offer...trying to smile and find joy.