About Me:

I've been married for 25yrs. to the same wonderful man. We have 2 grown children, a girl 24 & a boy 20yrs old. I have 2 grandchildren 20mts and 7yr old girls. I have 2 inside dogs & 2 out side dogs. My Mother died 3yrs ago, and I cant seem to get over it. I always feel so alone and empty. I miss her so bad. My mother and I were best friends, we called each other everyday. We shopped together, ate together, we did everything together. I miss her so bad. However I know she's in heaven and she's not suffering anymore and I'm so glad for that. Thank you Jesus!! My Grandmother died in Jan. Of this year. I miss her too! My sister has a liver sickness and only has about 2 to 5 years left says the doctors. She sleeps all the time. She's always in pain. My heart just goes out to her. I wish I could take her pain away. I always keep her in my prayers. I have a job driving a bus for 8 hrs a day. I Cant say I love it. But the money's pretty good, it helps with our bill's , its just not enough... We need more money, Were in a financial black hole. Its all we can do to have the money to pay our bills since his job put him on salary. It took a thousand dollars away each month . Will have a lone paid off in Nov. Of this year. Then will have enough money to pay our bills. I cant wait, the bill's are driving me crazy. I'm always depressed, unhappy and could care less if I'm dead or alive sometimes. I would never do anything to hurt myself either with the statement I just made. But someday's I really do feel that way. I wonder what am I even here on earth for. My husbands mom and dads air conditioner went out a few weeks ago. They don't have the money to get it fixed nor do we. I wish we could help them I feel so bad for them with this heat. I just pray that the lord gives them the strength to withhold the heat and not get sick or died from it. There to stubborn to move in with us. My daughter and her two children live with us, I wish she could find and real man that would love & take care of her and her two children forever. My son just got in the marines... I'm proud of him, but worried to no end. I don't want him to get hurt or die in war. He just got married in may of this year. His wife is pregnant , baby's due in Fed. 2008 . I just pray the lord takes care of him and his wife and that she will love and stand by him forever. His wife doesn't like me and my husband but I still keep trying to get her to love me. This hurts also. I really do Love her, but she could careless about me. I think Tommy picked the prefect wife & I hope they grow old together. PLEASE PRAY FOR MY DEPRESSION, FIANANCE, I WANT TO HAVE A HAPPY HEART AND MIND AGAIN. GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILYS.