About Me:

I am 36 year old female. I am bright, outgoing, well-rounded but went through a spiritual battle the last 4 years. I am trying to come back to myself in the last 6 months, and have some real challenges ahead of me. I use to travel around the world working, be so full of life, decide to do something and do it, never thought of anything not being within my reach.....................I am now trying to get my spirit back to full brillance, in spite of my very illing, abusive, controlling father and a man who terrorized me for years who recently was released from prison quietly working out the details of his pact with the devil. I had a hugh personal acheivement this year that had be almost back to myself, I made the Professional Woman's football team in San Diego and kept my position on the team despite many hugh personal losses and hurdles, until my father came to visit, and I was injured in practice the 3rd game into the season with a torn ACL in right knee. It has been a tremendous struggle to keep from having feelings of great resentment. anger, blaming, and loss of self-esteem and purpose from drowning me again. I have some real critical financial obligations due real soon and I am feeling like everything that I was slowly building back up, is crumbling around me and it's hopeless, although I have strong faith in my Lord, and intellectually know he will find a way when there doesn't seem to be one, and I am not feeling it in my heart truly as of late. I am alienating myself and am slowly spiraling into depression again. I don't want this to be what I amount to, I want to feel alive and confident again. I know God has shed his loving-kindness on me throughout my life, I have seen signs that have been from no other source than the Lord, I remember them vividly from youth before I even believed. God is there I know, I am just getting a weak signal to him right now. Thank you all for having this prayer circle, and for taking the time with your hearts to send some good blessings this Christians way!! God Bless!