Well I know I dont have a church I go to and find it very hard to be on my own lately. I use to be a strong person but for some reason there is a huge tug on me. I love my family and my friends are wonderful...however I would love to know Christian friends now and I dont have any. Makes my life a lil more difficult now that I realize that I want this and to know that I dont like drama and gossip drives me crazy. I just want to be happy and at peace which I have lost lately. But one thing I dont intend to do is give up. I will admit to feeling weak but I cant let the faith pass me by when I know its leading me in a new direction and that is why its gettin way harder then it was.