The devil has really been working on me the past 5 days. I have not spoken to my ex, he is likely with all probability in the arms of another. I have gotten a few little silly texts about trivial things, but no reaching out. This ... more >>

Oh Lord, I fell to the devil. Oh Father I am so ashamed. In my pain, my weariness and my frustration I fell to sin and not only drank large sums of alcohol, but when I saw the man I love's vehicle outside of a huge party I sent him ... more >>

Today Father, I am having a difficult time keeping my focus on You. I hear songs of praise in my mind when it is quiet, but I can feel a heavy burden on my heart, a sense of unrest, of lack of quiet. Last night when I lay in my bed wide ... more >>

I haven't heard anything much more from my ex fiance, but I went and met with my Pastor today and it so touched my heart. I need to die of self and give my love for my ex fiance to God and let God do as he chooses with it. Praise God ... more >>

I am so sad by the fact that this may be the end. And I am confused that I forgave so easily (though everything changed) his infidelity when we broke up. It isn't that it is okay, it is that the Lord made me realize many things. I also ... more >>

Dear Jesus, please touch the life of my ex fiance today. Oh dear Father, he admitted to me finally that he has been on drugs. That he has an addiction to MDMA. This is a man that I saw completely change his personality in a matter of 8 ... more >>

We saw one another yesterday, it did not go well. He wants to meet and talk today. I do not know if this is the right thing to do or if the devil is trying to draw me back in. Please pray for me to have wisdom!

Why did I see him yesterday? Why did I open my heart back up to the pain. It was the first time I have even glimpsed his face in 3 weeks and the moment I saw him the devil seemed to take over me too and I was rude, arrogant, cruel. It ... more >>

The devil attacked, and harder than I can ever remember. I called...heart broken and venom like should not come out of a man's mouth...laughter while I was crying. Twisting my life and blaming me for every ounce and then announcing that ... more >>

The day is looong today. I have been struggling so the last few days. I have had some contact with my ex fiance, and I feel a terrible yearning to see him. 12 years is not easy to wipe under the carpet. I have not been praying as I ... more >>