About Me:

I'm 31yrs old and I've been single for a year now. I was married for 7 years with no children. This past year I have been through alot and still going through the storm... I feel like I'm walking through the desert alone and I can't seem to find my way in this life. I have no peace or happiness anymore! I'm scared alot of the time not knowing how to make ends meet. I'm a very good person with a big heart and I try to live my life right by doing the right things by being good to others and living an honest life. I want a family and I truly enjoyed being married and being a wife but I want to be with the right person and be truly happy. I just don't know anymore; I use to be happy just by going outside looking at the sky, feeling the wind in my face, I don't know what happen or what went wrong... I just want that sweet peace I use to have; I want it back! I love God from the depth of my soul and I know him and i have arelationship with him but lately I feel like my prayers are landing on deaf ears and he is watching me struggle. I see so many people doing well around me and they are prospering and moving ahead with a family etc. and I'm watching as my life just passes me by. I've never just sat back and did nothing I've always fought for everything that I have and I don't want much in this world just to be able to pay my bills and have the simple things in life. I've never been money hungry or had the love of money in my heart. I actually hate what this world has become; it's all about money it's sicken! I know we are in the end times and it's only gonna get worse but I don't want to feel like this... Also I fell in love with someone who hurt me really bad and I haven't gotten over it and I pray alot for God to take it away from me but it's to the point I obsess over it it makes me sick! I feel I have so many issues in my life to take care of; it's overwhelming! I know God is the Almighty; The Great Counselor... but I feel like he is taking a vacation on me! I would be here all day with everything on my mind. All of this is smothering my sweet spirit... Please help! I don't know if that's what I was suppose to write about myself but it's what came to mind at this point!